I'm having a bit of a rough time at the mo :(.. combination of 5 days of headaches, wrong time of the month, kids on holiday, and my stress level is through the roof :(.. I feel so wound up I think my head is going to blow at any moment :I.. That's what you get for being clever and trying to make too many changes at once :O. I'm lucky though, the sticky bits come less often these days and are easier to get over, I'm sure I'll be OK in a few days :)
So If I don't post for a while you know why... On the bright side all is well at home, maybe its just my time to have them running around after me a bit for a change :)
Love and hugs to all and I hope your well :)
Anxiety rating.. (1) .. Gggrrr rating ..(2).. I want my bed rating..(9) :I
Good to see Haloscan are up to par..:(.. no comments yet again :(.. but on the good side I got smilies back in my tag box and that's still working :)..YAY......
Nothing much to report. Kids Ok now but hubby full of it :(.. poor love.. and me, well I still got a headache :(.. can't work out were the detox ended and sinus infection started :(.. And oh yes 2 lovely black eyes :).. I look gorgeous, other than that not feeling too bad, though I must say the SOYA MILK took some getting used to. Yes another one of my bits to my changed diet :(.. it contains natural estrogens which is ideal for the hormonally challenged among us :).. But it tastes like S**T :O
Got my new toy today Paint Shop Pro with my graphics do dars..hehe.. just had a quick play . Its fab. Now I can get on and re vamp some of these old pics, should be fun :)
Oh well I have bored both you and myself enough so time for an early night me thinks, Hope your all well, just going for a quick blog read before bed:)
He he.. as part of my diet changes I have to give up caffeine...aaaaarrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhh :(.. I stopped the coffee about 2 years ago and that wasn't too, bad just ended up drinking more tea :I..lol.. And yes, I don't drink or smoke either..:/.. so why you may ask?..what else is there in life worth living for?.. lol.. Well I always find sex is a good substitute for most things! :).. Get back to the tale.. yes .. 4 days without TEA .. hhhhmmmmmmm did you know tea contains half as much caffeine per cup as coffee, and that it contains tannins (prob spelt wrong) that stop you getting all the nutrients from the food you eat!.. I bet your all excited and reading this with great interest now!! ;). 4 days without tea and 4 days of headaches :(. You also get very addicted to it and after way too many years of drinking anything from 6 to 12 cups a day I'm in withdrawal!! .LOL.. yes its true.. you get withdrawal from tea just like you do with all other drugs. But I'm starting to feel better now, though I have had some strange erotic dreams over the past few nights :).. I wonder if they will ware off too.. hehe.
Corrie was a bit GOOD tonight :).. had me glued to my sofa.. will he or won't her kill Gail?.. hhhhhmmmmmmmmm me thinks not. He will disappear, only to be found dead somewhere having killed himself.. well I do write the plot in my spare time.. did I not mention that?..lol
Sleep well all :)
Yipeeeee my Paint shop Pro with graphics pad/pen and mouse comes next week :).. I need to get out more :I
Well pEg what can I say... 'what's for dinner mum?'..'jelly and kids party food'... 'Oh fab..yummm'.. Well they enjoyed it but hubby is signing the forms to have me committed as I write :O.
you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You adorable, but a little out there. It's alright, you might not have it all, but there are worse
Anxiety Rating ..(1).. Gggrr rating.. (1).. Brain dead rating.. off the scale :(
Hormones aaarrrrgggggghhhh.. my head feel like I borrowed it from someone with a frontal lobotomy :P... I feel so strange I cant explain. Woke this morning feeling gooooooodddddd.. I have been having strange flashback things.. almost like a bit of me that disappeared 9 years ago is finding its way home :).. Hard to explain really.. just like a part of my brain that went into coma has now started to awake :).. bringing the old me back.. giddy girly happy full of life and love of life.. Its really strange. I'm so used to the 'this' me.. the one that is paranoid and numb to all that goes on around.. Its a shock to be reminded of what an outgoing person I was and how I never let anything or anyone bother/get to me.. just sailed through life with a grin on my face :).. Shouted, balled, ranted when needed then a second later Happy and couldn't give a damn..hehe So folks if I start going all strange on you, don't be alarmed it will pass and normality will resume in a short time :)
Not managed to get anything done with the pics yet :I been busy with jobs at home that needed doing, will try and do a bit next week as the kids are off school so my time is more my own :)
Just been reading the blog roll.. hhhhhmmmmm.. many sad things going on for people at the mo.... and its hard when you know there is nothing you can do to help them :/.. hope things come OK in the end :)
I often think just how lucky I am to have the stability I have.. Yes many bad things have happened over the past few years that have caused much worry for us all, but we got through it all as a family. Supported each other when it was needed. I know I did mention about my hubby a while ago, but it was just my paranoia.. there was no real need to be alarmed in any way. Funny how things can seem to be one thing if you take them apart enough. I am a very lucky girl to have what I have. Relationship of 10 years strong and very loving one at that. 2 healthy kids.. nice home.. no money worries.. Most peoples dream I guess and I do take it for granted sometimes as I'm sure were all guilty of that from time to time :/
Enough of my ramblings.. Hope you all sleep well.. Much Love and hugs to all x x
A big thank you to Harry Stone for my new title.. I love it :).. even though the pick makes me look like a hunched back with an attitude problem :0. I have made a few more with new software I bought and will post them from time to time just to bore you even more :p.. I would hate to think you gained any enjoyment from looking at my page ;)
Bungee Jumping... hhhmmmmmm I was giving it some serious thought until I saw this..:0.. maybe not the best idea I had this decade :)
Just a quick line to Mr P..:).. I'm sorry for the lack of mail hun .. time goes no where and I have been using my 'net time' to update my page ( oh and play with it too :0 ).. Now I got it sorted I promise to do some mail over the next few days.. I got a stack to do because I have been burying my head in HTML in the hope my sad, boring housewife life would go away :(.. all together now.. aaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwww. hehe
One more thing...... I happy to report that I finally got my scanner working on this XP thing!! :).. I saw a nice new one going cheap at PC world ..half price it was.. and I thought to myself.. 'yes I'll have that'.. then just as I was about to press the *PURCHASE* button my miser side took over and demanded I went back to the Primax page to see if they had sorted the driver issue. Yes they had so many complaints about it they had put up a link to a site that gave a full break down of how to get round the problem... YYYYIIIIIIPPPPPPPPEEEEEE.. so I'm a happy bunny and can do some more work on my other pages over the weekend. Lots of bad photos of me when I was 12/4/baby..lol... and anything else I can find to bore you all enough so you give up the will to live!!
I need to pull my finger out and stop playing with this page :O.. Harry made me a fab new title and I will give it a wurl next time I do some Template editing :).. My attempt is not bad for a newbie :/
Not much to report.. Kids off school with this cold/flu bug so that's fun...NOT!!!.. and its half term next week just to depress me even further :(.. I do love my kids its just I'm so fed up of talking total responsibility for them. Hubby always at work.. leaving me tied to the house with no transport and 2 moaning kids.. GGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRR
Never mind..sleep well all :)
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I'm sobbing like a good un now.......Its free........ but its not in my area.. how cruel is that? Can I sell my house and move into York before this offer runs out?....... :p.. maybe not :(
Hope you all had a good weekend :).. I have been lazy this weekend and just caught up with a few jobs in my garden, cleaned out my greenhouse ready for spring :) and yes folks.......... the fact that I get great pleasure from playing with my diber :0.. and pricking out a few seedlings does mean that I have no life and should get out more!! :( Maybe one day :)
Happy to report that XP and my good self are finally best of mates :) and I have even sorted the bugs with my modem :).. Who's a clever girl then!! :P But sadly the same cant be said for Haloscan ...BBBBBBBBBBBoooooooooooooooo.. Me thinks its time they got their act together and sorted it now!!..its down far more than its up :o... or is that something else I'm talking about :o? ...hehe
Anxiety rating..(2) ... Grr rating.. (1).. Feeling OK :)
Hope you all had a good day full of Looovvvvvveeeeeeeee and stuff :)
Now I'm intrigued by the comment from peter in my tag box..:/... I don't know anyone by the name of peter :\.. and stranger still How does he know where I live? :o.. I'm at a loss as to who this person is.. so if your out there would you please drop me an e.mail and put me out of my misery :I
Seems I have been lucky and only had a few days of bad cramps to deal with ..:P.. unlike the rest of you poor people who found them selves spending way to much time in the company of their loos..hehe Hope your all feeling better now :)
New to my blog roll this evening in the girls corner is Sinister Sister.. I'm very jealous as she lives in the gorgeous Philippines and where all stuck here with this freezing damp cold weather :(
And for the boys corner I give you Dragonthief.. I hear from a reliable source that hes a Doctor no less :0
Take a look at this.. Lol it made me smile..
Sleep well chucks..:) x x x
Well it seems a mystery stomach virus is doing the rounds.. I never knew you could catch it via the PC :(.. Seems Harry had it over the past few days.. Now Moi Has it too :(.. and yes I am also a victim of this nasty bug :(.. Stomach cramps, vomiting, diarrhea, muscle pain.. YUCK..:( then it moves on to cold/flu like symptoms :(.. great something else to look forward to :( oh well.. a good reason to sit around the house listening to music and watching sky me thinks :) maybe its not so bad after all :)
In case of any unforeseen over use of my toilet facilities that make me unable to press the button to turn on my PC..;).. hehe I will do my Valentines ditty early... and her it is folks from me to you with lloooooovvvvvvvvveeeeeeeee.. not sure I'll be doing much in the way of lloooooooooovvvvvvve in my present condition..:(.. Have a good one!!
Well I went and did it..... sent fat kitty on a long holiday to the catery :).. I not been happy with the page for a while.. it looked cluttered and disorganized.. (just like my mind) ....... Looking through the templates there was nothing that I felt was 'me'.. whatever that's is.. Do they do a blog template for a bored almost middle aged housewife? Maybe not. :P.. This will have to do for now :)
Just found this on Ariel's Page.. LOL.. oh the joys of working life :).. I can remember it ..*JUST*.. The office..the manager from hell :( with the Evil Edna face to match.:P ... LOL .. and now I'm sat here in my Suburban prison called family life :0...aaarrrrrggghh.. Its not that bad really I kind of like it :) and I much prefer being my own boss to having some arse hole I have no respect for telling me what to do :P .. Have a good day chucks ...x x
Good Things to Say When You're Stressed at work:
1. "Okay, okay! I take it back. Unf#ck you!"
2. "You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing?!"
3. "Well this day was a total waste of make-up"
4. "Well aren't we a bloody ray of sunshine?"
5. "Don't bother me, I'm living happily ever after."
6. "Do I look like a f#cking people person!"
7. "This isn't an office. It's HELL with fluorescent lighting"
8. "I'm not crazy. I've been in a very bad mood for 30 years."
9. "Sarcasm is just one more service I offer."
10. "Do they ever shut up on your planet?"
11. "I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable"
12. "Back off!! You're standing in my aura."
13. "Don't worry. I forgot your name too."
14. "Not all men are annoying. Some are dead."
15. "Wait... I'm trying to imagine you with a personality"
16. "Chaos, panic and disorder... my work here is done."
17. "You look like sh!t. Is that the style now?"
18. "A hard-on doesn't count as personal growth."
19. "You are depriving some village of an idiot."
20. "If assholes could fly, this place would be a f#ckin airport.
I just reached a sticky spot that I cant get past in Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets.. gggggrrrrrrrrrrr..lol Looks like I will have to bribe my son to come and give me a hand :)
I noticed that some kind sole by the name of Chukkie Egg had left a comment in regard to my post on e.mail scams.. The one below where my relatives were burnt to ashes and had left lots of money... I was shocked when I followed the link and found this. I was aware there was a problem with this kind if stuff but had no idea it was a bad as that... really how sick can some people be :/... second thoughts don't answer that :0
Its Sunday evening again and as usual I'm feeling like a bear with a sore head :( In my years of trying to get my head around what I have become, I have found many ways in which to help me cope with ever day life. My worst time has to be mornings *YUCK*. I get what can only be described as morning sickness, sometimes ending with my head down the loo and others with me blacking out :/ You can imagine with 2 kids to get up and ready for school this posses a massive task in its self. God I hate hormones.. the menopause is bad enough when your in your 50s and have no one to worry about but yourself, but at my age its a nightmare. I even packed in work 6 months ago as I found the bouts of feeling like death and the crazy stuff it does to your brain and thought process toomuch to bare. I really had no idea that the menopause could cause so many symptoms and have such a dramatic affect on your life until I did some research on line. This page I found very helpful and nearly fell of my chair when I read the symptoms list and realized I wasn't going mad after all :P Oh well the joys of being female I guess, on the bright side I will be over the worst while I'm still young and on the *Oh my God* side I may shrink even more and being only 5'2" tall to start with the idea does not appeal much :(
Sleep well x x
Yay...hehe..does that say '0' ..so it does..there is life in the old dog yet!! :)
Hope you all had a good week and the pitfalls of life did not befall you :P
My week has been strange to say the least, It seems my hubby is spending way too much time with one of his landscape gardening clients :/ Me thinks he is giving her lower borders way too much attention, and lets not get into the thought of him trimming her bush :/....LoL..did I just right that...hehe Shes in her 50s so if that's the best he can do hes welcome to her :) Some clients it seems get special attention ..lucky them :0
On a lighter note if you ever fancied designing Mr or Mrs right take a look at this . I had to laugh when I tried to make Mr right it came out looking like my hubby when he was in his late 20s.. hehe
I'm off to read through the blog roll and see what everyone is upto :)..sleep well x x
All is well with the world this evening :) Got a few answers to questions, though they weren't what I was expecting :O..not good news, but not bad either. Time will tell. A big thank you to all the people who sent messages etc. You know who your are you lovely people :) Its comforting to know that others will take the time to let me know they are there :).. It makes a lonely little heart very warm and happy :)
My Ex saw the comment below referring to him and gave me an ear bashing :(..but hey what can I say, lies breed discontent , if you have nothing to hide then why lie and hide behind closed doors. The truth could have saved us both so much pain and the relationship need never had ended Rich. I will always care for you and you know that :)
I wish you all much love and hugs..sleep well x x
I don't believe it..he's just done it again :( ............... "just off to see my dad for an hour" gets in car uses phone :(.. I think me and his phone will be spending some quality time together this evening when he goes to bed :/... men!!! ......aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhh. Sadly for me I have been through all this before :( You can just tell when something isn't right and he always was a terrible liar. I was told a couple of months ago that an old girlfriend had turned up at his sisters house looking for him. She had just got divorced and thought she would look him up :(...oh well time will tell :(
*me scratches head*............ I get the sinking feeling that my hubby is up to something :(.. He keeps disappearing for the odd hour, and has also started coming home from work extra late 7.30pm some nights :( I have just seen him in the car making a quick phone call on his mobile before he set off.. :((((((((( why not make it from the house phone, its far cheaper. Anyone know any cheap Hitmen?.........
I got this in my e.mail this morning...:)...LOL...it seems all my relatives were burnt to ashes.. :( And they left me all their money :)
I think this is one for Harry.........hehe
I am barrister Chuks.C.Chukuwma a solicitor at law. I am the personal attorney to Engr. Davis Ford a national of your country, who used to work with Shell Development Company in Nigeria. Here in after shall be referred to as "my client"
On the 21st of April 1998, "my client", his wife and their three children were involved in a car accident along sagbama express road. All occupants of the vehicle burnt to ashes.
Ever since then I have made several inquiries to your embassy to locate any of "my client's extended relatives this has also proved unsuccessful.
After these several unsuccessful attempts, I decided to track his last name over the Internet, to locate any member of his family hence I contacted you.
"My client” left a lot of money with a Finance Company here as well as many other valuable properties worth millions of dollars. I have contacted you to repatriate his money and properties before they get confiscated or the Finance Company declares the account unserviceable.
I have all documents to this deposit and property all I require is your assistance to relocate especially his huge deposits.
Your soonest response is anticipated.
Please, note my hand phone number is 234-803-3036332, you can call me any time for more details.
I'm still here...:)..couldn't fit my PC in the small bag I was packing so decided to stay :P..lol Life..its a bitch init..and then you die!!..just cos I'm feeling cheerful.
It seems I'm on for a hot date with Harry Dump the 2 Rs and meet in Birmingham..how romantic :)..and with that in mind take a look at This ..................:O
Sleep well and keep away from the chat rooms ;)
Its Saturday evening and I best write something...hhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmm......blah ..blah...blahhhhhhh
It seems feeling blank is overcoming most of the blogging world at the mo :(..we all missing out days from time to time..just can't muster the energy to think let alone write something :( And when I do write I seem to put my foot in it and upset someone :( then spend the next few days trying to apologies :(....sob...sob...sob.. God I hate my life sometimes :( unpaid slave to the golf playing husband and 2 twittering moaning rug rats that take clean clothes/tidy house/food on the table on demand for granted...ggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I need to be free..I need to be me!!..not just someone's wife someone's mum. Somedays I just feel like packing a small bag and walking out the door, never to return.:0..ending with my face on a milk carton...'have you seen this woman?' get a new identity and start over.. If only I had the bottle :(..oh well looks like another 9 years of parental/wifely hell then!....AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH