Sunday, August 31, 2003


What a week :(
Bloody Pcs... who would have em..:( For the people that did not know.. I got Broadband a couple of weeks ago.. well AOL Broadband..:( And yes the service is great.. Its very fast and makes the net experience much more enjoyable. But naughty me had let her anti virus subscription slide *Smack to one wrist* .. so I though.. quick upgrade it now I have broadband I'm a huge target.. So I did.. only to find that I was already infected with 2 worms and 2 trojans.. AArrgggg.. well I did the *removal tool* thing.. and thought that would be the end of it .. no.. afterwards things seemed ok.. but the next day when I logged things were very strange.. certain things just wouldn't run at all and others behaved erratically :(
So after trying to fix things for a few hours I mad the decision to do a complete reboot.. I had a computer guy coming in a few days so thought now was a god time to start a fresh. It wasn't too bad as I have 2 hard drives so was able to save the important stuff on there :).. took me best part of a day to get everything installed and up and running.. So I thought great.. That's the worst over with... NO!!!!!.. that would be too simple...
Computer guy comes.. fits the new bits I wanted.. extra USB2 plus a card reader... and also a switch for networking.... they say its really easy to network 2 XP PCs.. LMAO.. don't believe it!!.. well to cut a long story short after 3 hours and the poor guy leaving at 10.30pm.. we had the network up and running.. he said he would return the next day to sort out the internet bit... Great I though.. No more kids hogging my PC..:).. But No!!.. in the sad world that is my reality nothing is ever straight forward.:(
He returns the next evening.. and makes a start.. but try as we may.. we cant get the thing to work.. So in desperation I look in the AOL help files.. and what do I find.. "AOL DOES NOT SUPPORT NETWORKING".. gggrrrrrrr
could you believe it.. Never a mention of it when you sign up.. the buggers.. So I check on the message boards and yes.. you guessed it a page full of nasty posts about how poor people had spent mega bucks on wireless/routers to network PCs.. only to find they don't support it.
At this point I'm seeing red as my return period is up by a few days already and I'm now stuck with it.. my daughter cant access the internet at all from the upstairs PC and the whole point of getting broadband was so we could both be on at the same time.. GGGrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
So in my frustration I picks up the phone the next day and rings AOL.. I gave them such a stuffing about the lack of information when you sign up.. and how I was now stuck with this for 12months... The guy went away.. came back and said.. You can return it!.. I was surprised I didn't expect that at all.
Well to cut a long story only a little bit shorter I'm now back on dial up :(.. and it were things really this slow? I have to wait a few weeks for the AOL survive to be removed from my line.. then hopefully I can get Freeserve broadband.. but the laugh is.. when I signed for AOL both of them were free.. and now Freeserve are charging £50 for the modem.. *BANGS HEAD AGAINST ROOM WALL* Does someone up there have it in for me?

sleep well chucks.. x x

Monday, August 25, 2003

I give in

Well I stopped trying to sort it..
so you'll have to make do with this till I get sorted.
And I got broadband.. Plus the added bonus of ever virus/bug known to man :(
but managed to avoid the blaster
Sadly I have just had to spend the best part of a day rebooting this bloody PC.. And I still got loads more to do :/
then I will get the site sorted..

Ali.. I will send you mail soon hun!
Mr P. Glad to have you back sweetie :)
Husky.. Great about the new job!
Harry.. Hope your well .. you not been around much :(

Sweet dreams all :)

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

Aint Nature Grand :)

I have put the pics as links rather than on the page..
Strange Grasshopper like insect :P

Bee on Globe Thistle

Bottoms up :O

Sunday, August 10, 2003

HAPPY BIRTHDAY To my daughter Kelly .. 16 today :P
God I feel Old now!! :(

Happy Birthday  :)

This has to be one of my fav pics of her :).. Cute

Saturday, August 09, 2003

You Are Love
You are Love.

You love life, you love all those around you and
the world that you live in. You are happiest
when you are doing something for someone else
or for the common good of mankind.

What Emotion Are You?
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Aaaaaaawww that's so like me ;P.. NOT!!

Come Undone.. Duran Duran

Can't ever keep from falling apart
At the seams
Can't I believe you're taking my heart to pieces?

Oh, it'll take a little time,
might take a little crime
to come undone now

We'll try to stay blind
to the hope and fear outside
Hey child, stay wilder than the wind
And blow me in to cry

Who do you need, who do you love
When you come undone

Words, playing me deja vu
Like a radio tune I swear I've heard before
Chill, is it something real
Or the magic I'm feeding off your fingers

Can't ever keep from falling apart
At the seams
Can I believe you're taking my heart
To pieces?

Lost, in a snow filled sky, we'll make it alright
To come undone now
We'll try to stay blind
to the hope and fear outside
Hey child, stay wilder than the wind
And blow me in to cry

Who do you need, who do you love
When you come undone

Another one of my fav tunes :) What I find amazing is the lack of understanding when a person has a mental problem of any kind :(.. I find some comfort in this song. It just goes to prove that we all have hard times in our lives, and all deal with it in different ways.. and if Coming Undone is your way .. then go for it :)
The problem is this.. when you're a *Young adult* everything is full of hope for the future.. what you're going to do and be .. who your going to do it with.. Owning your own place.. Marriage.. Kids.. Or just finding that special someone to share your life with.. all that future ahead. But the sad reality of getting toughs things.. the heartache.. obstacles struggles .. is something you never add into the equation... and as all these happen to you/around you.. it changes who you are bit by bit.. until one day.. many years down the line.. you look into a mirror and don't recognise the person looking back at you. 'How the hell did I get here?'.. 'Where has all that life gone?'... you see we're all too busy just trying to get through things .. over things.. round things... we somehow forget to live :( So it makes no wonder we have trouble coming to terms with things... Dealing with things while clinging on with our finger nails for dear life.
I'm the ripe old age of 34 now..:P and can honestly say that most of the people I know have at one time or another suffered some kind of mental problem.. but its sad that only a few will hold up there hand and admit it. Maybe if more people did stick their hands high in the air instead of keeping things behind closed doors .. the world would have to stop running for cover every time the words *Mental Illness* are uttered :/
Enough of this adult babbling.. I'm off to fly my Kite!! :)

Tuesday, August 05, 2003

Flying High

One of the good parts about being a parent is buying your kids things that you would of liked as a kid.. LMAO.. I know its sad but we all do it.... Examples being..Zoo Tycoon for PC.. LOL..... and when a little face opens it and says 'what's This Rubbish'.. The reply goes.. 'oh sorry I'm sure I heard you mention that you would like it'.. I add at this point these are on the spot presents and not birthday or Christmas.. Even I'm not that cruel :).. The latest of my purchases was a kite :).. Bought along with a lot of other outside play goodies to entertain the kids in this nice weather.... After all I wouldn't want the shop owner to think I was buying it for myself ;) that would never do!!
Well today we finally had enough wind to give it a test run.. So off we went with half the kids from the estate in tow... grrrr.. It was ACE.. its a stunt kite with a very long tail. At this point I will let out sadistic mum!!.. LOL.. you'll see why in a min.. We did note while attempting to fly the thing that it would suddenly develop a will of its own .. do a triple Loop one way fly high into the air and then dive at light speed crashing to the ground..:) As all good parents do I heard the words of my own Parents being screeched from my mouth.. "Don't.. Stop It.. It will all end in tears". The words that came out were ..... "Don't get too close kids cos if it comes down on your head you'll be in casualty".. LMAO.. And yes we all know what's coming next don't we ;P
Well my lovely son in his usual grumpy way when he's tired decided not to listen.. and the words had no sooner started to leave my mouth when in a split second it plummeted did a loop the loop.. Lined itself up on his head and made a light speed dive... What can I say I laughed so hard I had to picked from the floor by a passer by.. And poor William.. Well he picked himself with a dazed look in his eye and said.. "Is it time to go home mum?"..

Monday, August 04, 2003

Is it hot enough for ya?

Yes is the answer.. always a good sign when you can fry eggs on the BBQ top without it being lit...LOL And its going to get even hotter :O.. I'm happy to report that after a bit of sunbathing I'm my usual dishwater beige colour :(.. Most people go brown.. or a strange Its hard to say really.. I just look like I need a good wash :(.. Oh well

Well I have lost the will to live over the page colour and background :(.. and this RED is way to bright.. I want it to say softly "I'm red.. come and love me".. not scream "RED IM DESPERATE COME AND HAVE ME!!".. So more playing is needed But can you see it folks?.. That's the big one?
and what's more.. Does anyone give a damn?

I found this on a page the other night.. its a must for all Tenacious D Fans.. but its XX rated.. so no under 18s please.. come to think of it.. they would know more about the subject matter than us 10 years married types would ;) It takes a while to download but its worth it.. Well that's my opinion.. I will prob get lots of nasty comments saying.. "What is this crap.. Have you gone mad?"

Sleep well x

Friday, August 01, 2003

Right boys and girls....
I tried what you said.. but no joy.. It wouldn't allow it.. FTP. is the address of my blogger server and if you try and mess with it.. I get the white treatment.. lol.. So have hosted the background and the title on the yahoo server.. and if you still can't see it.. well I will move it back to my main server and will have to leave it at that.. Sorry :(