Thursday, July 31, 2003


All is quiet.. not a sound in the house :(.. They are all in bed asleep.. Even stranger.. the net is quiet.. not a person I know online :(.. Did someone take over the planet and not tell me?.. or is it the dreaded *THURSDAY NIGHT BLACK HOLE BLIP*... I am amazed.. this seems to happen regular on a Thursday... :(.. Is there a Hip Net party going on somewhere and you don't think I'm cool enough to be invited.. or are you all suffering the *Its almost the end of the week and I'm Knackered* syndrome? Well either way I'm bored out of my braindead housewife scull :(.. Can't be bothered to convert any CDs.. or download any MP3s.. don't feel much like going in a chat room or game room.. So I guess I will have to go and take out my frustrations on some unsuspecting oranges.. and squeeze the life out of the little orange buggers ;)

P.s. Have no idea how to get the background to work on other browsers.. Sorry guys..
P.p.s. Have a great Holiday Mr P :).. You will be fine.. Honest.. Believe me.. I was a psychic in a previous life ;P

Monday, July 28, 2003

Sorry :(

Please forgive me Ali ..:(.. I put you with the girls :(.. Yes you would probably be happy there ;).. but its not right! I have a friend called Ali.. A Girl.. LOL.. short for Alison and just jumped straight in :(
If I had bothered to read right through your site.. *Go On Slap Me!!* .. what Can I say.. I see it I like it.. I use it.. I'm female..can't help it :)... Thankyou to Harry for pointing this out to me :)

Sunday, July 27, 2003

A Change is as good as a rest!

Can't quiet see it myself.. its bloody stressful.. waiting for your blog to appear, so you can see what damage you have done with your attempt to make it more hip. Well I have never been hip.. so why start now ;) I must say though it does look like I could happily advertise such things as *The Rabbit* and *The Butterfly* on it.. (For toughs of you who think I have lost the plot visit Ann Summers Online.. all will become clear)

Added a few new links.. Ali for the girls... This site had me going green.. its way too fab..
Husky Pup for the boys.. Wins the vote for best site with a cute puppy on it!
and Wallybrane.. for the boys also.. Politics meets sarcasm... hmmmm :)

Have a good one x x
New Look :P

New look to my page :).. and I feel its very me people. A big thanx goes to Ripsaw who gave me a hand on a few sticky bits.. Hugs Hun x x
Also done a bit on my other site.. new photos etc.. but that's still on going now I have upgraded the site I have more room :)


Thursday, July 24, 2003

MEN... :(

My so called husband has just walked in at 11pm.. he left the house at 2pm this afternoon to play a round of golf..:(.. Is it me or do you also find this unreasonable.. I mean honestly.. well.. I'm so lost for words. what can you say.. I just can't believe it :(.. We had a big shouting session before he left and I told him I had had enough of it . And from now on am going on strike in both the work/gardening bit and the bedroom bit. Because people its like this.. If I go out for even a couple of hours to paint a friends wall.. I get phone calls wanting to know where I am and why am I not home yet... and if I just buggered off for the afternoon leaving him with the kids/housework/cooking/washing.. he would flip his lid. I think its time for an advert in the *looking for a new partner* web sites.. cos I'm so fed up of banging my head against a large green brick wall with white balls on it .!!

On a lighter note the kids have now broken up for 7 weeks.. AAARRGGHHH. and bets are on for how many weeks it takes me to loose the plot.. Closely followed by the will to live :(.. If the kids don't get me.. the damn golf will! :(

nit nite x x

Tuesday, July 22, 2003

Been busy converting all my fav CDs to Mp3 so I can listen to them with my player when I'm out and about :).. One of my fav songs of all time has to be the one below.. Its a beautiful piece of music with even better lyrics.. :)
Just thought I would bore the pants of ya and share it ;P

Father figure George Michael

That's all I wanted
Something special, something sacred
In your eyes
For just one moment
To be bold and naked
At your side
Sometimes I think that you'll never
Understand me
Maybe this time is forever
Say it can be

That's all you wanted
Something special, someone sacred
In your life
Just for one moment
To be warm and naked
At my side

Sometimes I think that you'll never
Understand me
But something tells me together
We'd be happy

I will be your father figure
(Oh baby)
Put your tiny hand in mine
(I'd love to)
I will be your preacher teacher
(Be your daddy)
Anything you have in mind
(It would make me)
I will be your father figure
(Very happy)
I have had enough of crime
(Please let me)
I will be the one who loves you
Until the end of time

That's all I wanted
But sometimes love can be mistaken
For a crime
That's all I wanted
Just to see my baby's
Blue eyed shine
This time I think that my lover
Understands me
If we have faith in each other
Then we can be

I will be your father figure
Put your tiny hand in mine
I will be your preacher teacher
Anything you have in mind
I will be your father figure
I have had enough of crime
I will be the one who loves you
Until the end of time

If you are the desert
I'll be the sea
If you ever hunger
Hunger for me
Whatever you ask for
That's what I'll be

So when you remember the ones who have lied
Who said that they cared
But then laughed as you cried
Beautiful Darling
Don't think of me

Because all I ever wanted
It's in your eyes baby, baby
And love can't lie, no...
(Greet me with the eyes of a child)
My love is always tell me to...
(Heaven is a kiss and a smile)
Just hold on, hold on
I won't let you go, my baby

I will be your father figure
Put your tiny hand in mine
I will be your preacher teacher
Anything you have in mind
I will be your father figure
I have had enough of crime
(So I am gonna love you)
Until the end of time
I will be your father
I will be your preacher
I will be your daddy
I will be the one who loves you until the end of time

Saturday, July 19, 2003

Icing On My Cake :P

Its been a busy old week.. lots of fun things :)
finally stopped gibbering long enough to take the kids for a day out to Flamingo Land.. I know its not a big thing.. but for someone like me its huge :).. Things were great 10 mins into the journey Hubby asks me how to get there :/.. Bloody men.. Honestly I organized everything else.. He's driving.. all he has to do is get us there.. and he waits till were miles away before he says anything... GGGrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.. Despite his lack of brain matter we got there.. and all had a fab day. Even managed a few rides.. I did all the scary ones years ago so thought best give them a miss. That and I don't think my fragile stomach would have survived the experience without expelling its self from my body :(
Barbi on Saturday.. *that's the food one and not the dum blonde one*.. That was cool .. but Rob managed to singe his eyebrows and nearly burn down the conifer hedge.. hey the food tasted good.. so all were happy.
Swimming on Sunday. Took William and one of his mates to Goole, they have a bigger pool with a large water slide there.. the kids loved it.. and I enjoyed the swim.. and the attention from the male occupants of the pool.. *OK I'm a big flirt so slap me!*
I suppose I should bore you with some boring pics I took with my digital camera.. hhhmmmmmmmm maybe next time .. Can't be bothered at the mo.

Youth Is wasted On The Young!

I was contacted last week by a guy I used to hang around with when I was 15/16 through Friends Reunited (Link In right margin).. What can I say.. it was a long time ago.. so much has happened. At the time I was going through a bit of a *Its male I'll go out with it* phase.. and as I was a bit scary in the looks department all attention was greatly received:). To cut a long story short he was a good lad :).. and It set me to thinking how different my life would have turned out if I had got with him rather than the arsehole I ended up with. He was 19 at the time and very *sorted* good job car etc.. great personality and a mad sense of humor (Both of which he still has I'm glad to report:).. but he wasn't dangerous enough for me.. LOL.. So I went for the Nutter instead.. and there start the crap that became my life.
Quick someone hit me with a large blunt object I'm getting all nostalgic :P
We had some fun times and reading through the letters we used to send each other.. Well my god.. I was a bit of a tare away.. and look at me now :/.. brain dead housewife living in StepFord!!!.. AAARRRRGGGHHHHHH

Tuesday, July 08, 2003

No More.. Not Again!! :(

Sorry but its my blog and if you don't like it then tough! ;)
Kind of getting back into this blogging thing :).. Maybe cos in my usual *Brain dead Housewife* way I managed to delete 50 of my fav Mp3s that had taken me probably days to download :( Don't you just love 56K dial Up.. Not! To cut a rather long story short its kind of put me off mp3ing for a while. I will wait till I get Broadband next month.. then give it a good battering.. but I must admit I'm a bit cautious with the American music industry threatening to fine anyone they find sharing music :(.. Not good karma people. :( ITS NOT BLOODY FAIR (screeched in a 16 year olds kinda way). I buy CD. I have a couple of hundred in my collection.. Its only the old stuff that's hard to get .. or I refuse to pay £20 quid for a compilation just to get one song!. I understand why they are doing it..But the fact is that people have been doing it for as long as there have been tape recorders and radios. So why now?.. Answers an a large postcard to Brain Dead Housewife, Somewhere in East Yorkshire, With few Computer skills, Large Boobs and Butt (STILL :(...) But otherwise almost normal.

Have a good One!! x x
Don't Panic!!! I know its 2 posts in 2 days.. But what the hell :)

Have just done my blog roll. I try to make sure I check in with people at least once a week, but I will admit with things been so busy lately I have let some sights slide. So in an effort to get a grip of my self (Hold That thought for a moment:P) I had a good read through. and I find quiet a few people have stopped bloging all together :(.. So its not just me that's run out of things to say, and sits with a brain dead glaze in their eyes as they stare blank at the Blogger post screen :/
With that in mind its got me in the mood for a good shakeup of my pages :P.. I have been planning it for a while and with my workload now reduced the time is now!. So I'm going to be removing some people from the blog roll and adding a few others.... have a new look for the page.. That's if I'm feeling super brave :).. and also get the other site sorted with new pics.. finish my 101 things etc.. and generally an all round shake up. I must be insane.. either that or the house is so bloody clean.. the garden so tidy.. that I'm bored out of my under used skull and need a new challenge :)

Watch this space.. (that's if your so brain dead you class this rubbish as entertainment ;)


Sunday, July 06, 2003

Lactating Barbie
Lactating Barbie? What the fuck is wrong with you?
Snap out of it and kill the kid while you still

If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
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Sorry for the above quiz.. but thought it was very apt with the content of my next moan :/


What can you say really .. other than anyone got a big gun so I can put myself out of my misery :(
Why do we bother having children?.. Why do we invest such time and effort with tenderness and love, only to have it all thrown back in our faces and be told *WHAT A CRAP PARENT WE ARE*.. but the laugh is this comes at the end of an argument when teenager daughter has just been found out for using mummy's password to log on to AOL till approx 7.30 am :(
It seems the reason for her abuse of my password is because I'm a terrible parent :/.. My God how did .. *you little mare , I have just checked my online bill and you have been logging in on my account till the early hours *.. get turned around to .. *its all your fault, if you weren't such a crap mother I wouldn't need to go on the net (LARGE PAUSE FOR INTAKE OF BREATH>> NOW SCREAM SOME MORE) and for gods sake mother One hour is no use to anyone, I can only download one song in that time!!!*
The only reason I got AOL was due to the fact she could not be trusted to come off when told.. and when she thought we were asleep she would re dial. I never thought for a minute that she would spend hours looking through my net books to find my password. *Hits head with large blunt object*.. How stupid was I!! All I can say is "Don't have any kids" That way you will never have to spend hours on end.. Screaming at the top of your voice... and having every thing you have ever done thrown back in your face by the ungrateful little buggers when you find them out yet again :(
Parenting Sucks!!

But on a lighter note :).. Weather was Ok today
Sleep Well x x

Wednesday, July 02, 2003

Life Is What Happens when your Making Plans

How the above little ditty is so true. Said by Mr lennon I do believe, Well that's what they said on Emmerdale tonite ;

Before I ramble a few waves... A big snog goes to Mr P.. I will do mail over the next few days Hun :).. Hope you and the family are well. And A big Hi (Plus snog if he so wishes) to Harry we had a nice natter the other night and its always a pleasure to share net time with him.

To my rambles......... I'm feeling a little strange today :/.. mainly cos my parents have been , I don't get to see them much these days due to work/my gibberingness and life in general and it always throws me off balance a little to have them in the house. So its been... stomach churning and general Miss anxiety sadly :(.. But I look on the positive side... When I get these set backs it just reminds me just how far I have come and how well I am doing :).. Big pat on the back for me :)
I can honestly say despite a few issues that are in the background, I am more at peace with myself/who I am and what I am than I have ever been in my life :) Anxiety for me has been a life changer. I never take a trip to the shops or a night out.. or even just getting out of the house in general for granted. I try also never to take the love and support from the people around me for granted either. Its been a long road and I still have far to travel but that's what life's about aint it? Learning from the bad bits and making the most from the good bits.

Speaking of bad bits :(.. My best mate had a bad heart attack about 6 months ago at the ripe old age of 35 :(.. well sadly her overall health has taken a downward spiral and she's spent more time in the hospital over the past few months than anywhere else.. She is the nearest thing I have ever had to a sister, one of the few people I can really let myself be myself with.. let *the Bradford Lass * out and have a bloody good laugh :) I love the bones of her and with her long term future unsure I am finding it hard to take in. How do you get your head around such things?.. I know I have been through it before, but I feel with all the shit I have endured over the past years I'm just no longer strong enough to deal with it. The last 2 of my grandparents died over the past few years and I was so upset by the whole thing I was unable to attend either funeral :(.. It just sent my anxiety spiraling out of control.. My brain is numb with the very prospect :/

Other than that.. things are great :).. lol
Hope your all OK x x x