Wednesday, January 26, 2005


There's a girl inside the woman
Who's waiting to get free
She's washed a million dishes
She's always making tea
They think she's just a mother
With nothing left inside
Who swapped her dreams for drudgery
The day she was a bride
But the dreams were not forgotten
Just wrapped and packed away
In the hope that she could take them out
And dust them off one day......
There's a girl inside the woman
And the mother she became
And half-remembered songs come to her lips again......
The girl would sing the melody
But the woman stands in doubt
And wonders what the price would be
For letting the young girl out.

Thanks to for the above.. kinda made me smile..


What a strange thing it is :/.. I believe that everything happens for a reason .. even the bad stuff. If you can stay strong and keep it together long enough to get through a situation then finding a positive edge on the outcome is the next step. This allows you to improve as a person as you travel along that rollercoaster that is called life. Ok my life has never really been easy, and just when I'm on my knees and think I can't take it any more fate gives me a good kick in the ribs to make sure I'm totally flat out. But on the positive side people.. when you're on the floor already.. the only wayleft is up!!! and what does not kill you makes you stronger and hopefully a more considerate human being to others and their feelings.

Lecture over!!.. lol
I'm constantly amazed by the how my life seems to be just mulling along OK then something or someone steps into it, when you had lost all hope of things ever changing. So as much as fate can kick you when you are will rise you up when you least expect it. Something or should I say someone has just happened to my life that has totally changed my outlook on who I thought I was and where I thought I wanted my future to go... Out of blue.. BANG. when you least expect it.. Its bonkers!!.. but very uplifting and a joy to experience. I have learnt so much this last 2 weeks about who I am, and why I behave the way I do to others. My relationship with my daughter and where my future is heading. All very positive stuff!! and if It comes to nothing in the end I will be a much better person for having had this person in my life.
So what I'm trying to say folks is this.. don't ever give up!!.. don't ever stop dreaming,wanting and hoping.. cos one day when you're sat there thinking well that's it then... good things will happen and remind you of how great life is and how lucky we are to be here and experience it.


Sunday, January 16, 2005

New Look

I thought as it was a new year I would have a new look .:) Something to express my personality...
Well that would be totally bonkers and lost the plot then I guess :/ Oh well It will have to do for now.

Saturday, January 15, 2005

New Year

Well Its been eventful if nothing else. With the problems the world has suffered since Christmas it kind of left me speechless :/ so much death an destruction :( finding words that describe how you feel are really hard at such times as these, so I felt it best to say nothing. But what I will say is.. my heart goes out to all the people affected by this disaster. Even my own family know someone who has not returned and is believed dead. So my thoughts and prayers are with you all at such a sad time.
On a more positive note.. they say good things come from such tragedy's.. and how great it is to see the world pulling together in a desperate attempt to help these people and the areas they live. It has restored my faith in human nature, and maybe..just maybe.. we do have a long term future together on this planet afterall :)

The Gibbering Wreck

What has become of her?..where did she go?.. Its hard to believe that 2 years ago when I started this blog just how bad I felt. How much anxiety ruled my life from day to day.. Minute to minute. Ok I still have the odd bad day.. but they are few and far between these days. For the first time in the whole of my life. I feel well.. In control.. and content with who I am and where I'm going.. all I have to do now is get a grip on my ever growing butt and that's my only ish for this year.. get my fitness back to where it was before all this happened. And I'm well on the way to my goal with that :)

I'd like to take this opportunity to point the gibbering amongst us to a website that I feel will be great help to them... Its a great site full of info and stories with a positive edge. Plus people who will listen and give help and advise.. go on.. give it a go.. and send sunbaked my love:) and best wishes on his own journey.


Once again another subject close to my heart. My brother is out there at the moment doing his 6 month tour. It scares the s**t out of me to think of where he is and what he is doing :( Ok he's been in the army a lot of years and as a staff sergeant he knows what he's doing, but still my heart jumps every time I see something on the news. He only has 4 years left before he can retire with a full pension, and for something to happen to him now... all I can do is hope he makes it home in one piece I guess. Same as all the other families with loved ones out there.