Ho Ho Ho..:P
He...He... Well its that time folks.. Merry Christmas.. or Happy Holidays for the Americans reading this page. I wish you all a good One!!!
I'm off to get it naked :P..The turkey that is :).. And give it a damn good stuffing.. The husband that is...lol
After surviving the yearly trip to see my parents without loosing the will to live and wishing I hadn't''t suddenly been stuck deaf, I find myself chilled. But with no skin left on my lips :(.. Its a selotape thing :(.. The joys of child ownership and much present wrapping :P
We also had snow 2 days ago which was kinda fab in a Christmas card kinda way, but my son loved it and it was a joy to see all the local kids snowballing the local OAP's... Joke!!!
keep warm and have much fun love and laughter Chucks :) much love x x
Thursday, December 25, 2003
Saturday, December 20, 2003
Tis The Season too Be Jolly
Well... Sat here bored out of my brains .. So thought best do some kind of an update :)..m so here goes:-
We had the usual Christmas extravaganza in the town this year...lol... We had celebs from Coronation Street and Santa was pulled by Reindeer this year which was a site to behold and a first for me and the family. Yes we live in the countryside with lots of wildlife etc. but reindeer are a little sparse on the ground believe it or not..lol I took some pics of them once they had got them settled in a pen in the main town square. I put the best one on the pics site.
It was also Williams school play last night. That was very good and a lot of fun to watch. Pics also on the other site, though the one taken at the play did not come out too well so I took one of him in his costume that I spent many an hour making, when we got home.:)
I must say how nice it was that for the first time in years I was able to sit through the play without having a panic attack..lol. You are always squashed in in these places and it really freaks me out, but for the first time I sat an enjoyed it without any fear of making a sudden dash for the nearest exit.:( I will go more into things in my almost new year post as its been a good year for me all round.. YAY
Have fun people and be good :)
Well... Sat here bored out of my brains .. So thought best do some kind of an update :)..m so here goes:-
We had the usual Christmas extravaganza in the town this year...lol... We had celebs from Coronation Street and Santa was pulled by Reindeer this year which was a site to behold and a first for me and the family. Yes we live in the countryside with lots of wildlife etc. but reindeer are a little sparse on the ground believe it or not..lol I took some pics of them once they had got them settled in a pen in the main town square. I put the best one on the pics site.
It was also Williams school play last night. That was very good and a lot of fun to watch. Pics also on the other site, though the one taken at the play did not come out too well so I took one of him in his costume that I spent many an hour making, when we got home.:)
I must say how nice it was that for the first time in years I was able to sit through the play without having a panic attack..lol. You are always squashed in in these places and it really freaks me out, but for the first time I sat an enjoyed it without any fear of making a sudden dash for the nearest exit.:( I will go more into things in my almost new year post as its been a good year for me all round.. YAY
Have fun people and be good :)
Friday, December 19, 2003
Monday, December 08, 2003
Golf Joke :)
One Saturday morning an avid golfer gets up early, dresses quietly,gets in his car to drive to the course. Coming out of his garage rain is pouring down; torrential downpour. There is snow mixed in with the rain,and the wind is blowing 50 mph. He returns to the garage. He comes back into the house and turns the TV to the weather channel. The forecast was bad for the whole day, so he puts his clubs away and slips back into bed. There he cuddles up to his wife's back, now with a different anticipation, and whispers, "The weather out there is terrible." To which she sleepily replies, "Can you believe my stupid husband is out golfing in that s**t?"
Thanks To Mr P for that one.. put a huge smile on my face I can tell you. :P
One Saturday morning an avid golfer gets up early, dresses quietly,gets in his car to drive to the course. Coming out of his garage rain is pouring down; torrential downpour. There is snow mixed in with the rain,and the wind is blowing 50 mph. He returns to the garage. He comes back into the house and turns the TV to the weather channel. The forecast was bad for the whole day, so he puts his clubs away and slips back into bed. There he cuddles up to his wife's back, now with a different anticipation, and whispers, "The weather out there is terrible." To which she sleepily replies, "Can you believe my stupid husband is out golfing in that s**t?"
Thanks To Mr P for that one.. put a huge smile on my face I can tell you. :P
Sunday, December 07, 2003
BACK :)
Yup... and the front bit is here too :P.. What can I say... ermmmmmmmmmm.. Laziness.... ermmm...more laziness... and yes folks.. maybe a bit or mulling over things too :P... but I have been busy too. Its that time of year again.. Costume making for the school play :/.. and this year folks were going to be a grandfather clock!!!.. Yes you did hear that right... so you can guess the fun I have been having over the past few weeks with a hot glue gun lots of cardboard and sticky tape... YAY.. well maybe not so YAY... I will put a pic up of my efforts on the picture site when he does the play.. so you can all laugh with me *or should that read at me:(*
One of the main reasons for not saying much is I feel sometimes there is so much crap in my head its best to say nothing. As I would only regret it afterwards. I have many a time written things on here and the given myself a good kicking afterwards when re reading it back..lol.. The last 2 posts being a good example of this :).. So its.. keep ones rubbish to ones self from now on. Till I'm feeling more human and more able to have an adult conversation instead of tempering like a 2 year old when I don't get my own way :P.
I had some nice e.mails of people, they were no doubt wondering if I had gone back to gibbering and living the life of a hermit..:).. But no.. Things are OK with me.. Just needed to get a few things straight In my head that's all. A little time out so to speak. I have had time away from messenger too, so some of you have noticed and sent me e.mail wondering why. Mainly cos I have been busy back in Worlds 3D... Its a bit addictive :P.. I'm so into it I have even started to make my own AV's..Now that is sad!.. So if you fancy a go then give me a shout.. I'm *littleme1969*.. Maybe I will see you there some time :)
Last but not least I would like to dedicate this song to a dear friend of mine :).. He sent me a lovely e.mail and I have not yet responded. It's sometimes hard to find the right words. So I hope the song will say it for me. This song always was one of our favs.. but funny with the passage of time the words mean so much more nowadays. Much love to you my friend :P
The words don't do this song justice, Its from the *Listen Without Prejudice* album.. you should give it a listen to appreciate it properly. :P
Cowboys and Angels George Michael
***************** *************
When your heart's in someone else's hands
Monkey see and monkey do
Their wish is your command
You're not to blame
Everyone's the same
All you do is love and love is all you do
I should know by now, the way I fought for you
You're not to blame
Everyone's the same
I know you think that you're safe
Mister
Harmless deception
That keeps love at bay
It's the ones who resist that we most want to kiss
Wouldn't you say?
Cowboys and angels
They all have the time for you
Why should I imagine
That I'd be a find for you
Why should I imagine
That I'd have something to say
But that scar on your face
That beautiful face of yours
In your heart there's a trace
Of someone before
When your heart's in someone else's plans
Things you say and things you do
They don't understand
It's such a shame
Always ends the same
You can call it love but I don't think it's true
You should know by now
I'm not the boy for you
You're not to blame
Always ends the same
I know you think that you're safe
Sister
Harmless affection
That keeps things this way
It's the ones who persist for the sake of a kiss
Who will pay
Cowboys and angels
They all take a shine to you
Why should I imagine that I was designed for you
Why should I believe
That you would stay
But that scar on your face
That beautiful face of yours
Don't you think that I know
They've hurt you before
Take this man to your bed
Maybe his hands will help you forget
Please be stronger than your past
The future may still give you a chance.
Yup... and the front bit is here too :P.. What can I say... ermmmmmmmmmm.. Laziness.... ermmm...more laziness... and yes folks.. maybe a bit or mulling over things too :P... but I have been busy too. Its that time of year again.. Costume making for the school play :/.. and this year folks were going to be a grandfather clock!!!.. Yes you did hear that right... so you can guess the fun I have been having over the past few weeks with a hot glue gun lots of cardboard and sticky tape... YAY.. well maybe not so YAY... I will put a pic up of my efforts on the picture site when he does the play.. so you can all laugh with me *or should that read at me:(*
One of the main reasons for not saying much is I feel sometimes there is so much crap in my head its best to say nothing. As I would only regret it afterwards. I have many a time written things on here and the given myself a good kicking afterwards when re reading it back..lol.. The last 2 posts being a good example of this :).. So its.. keep ones rubbish to ones self from now on. Till I'm feeling more human and more able to have an adult conversation instead of tempering like a 2 year old when I don't get my own way :P.
I had some nice e.mails of people, they were no doubt wondering if I had gone back to gibbering and living the life of a hermit..:).. But no.. Things are OK with me.. Just needed to get a few things straight In my head that's all. A little time out so to speak. I have had time away from messenger too, so some of you have noticed and sent me e.mail wondering why. Mainly cos I have been busy back in Worlds 3D... Its a bit addictive :P.. I'm so into it I have even started to make my own AV's..Now that is sad!.. So if you fancy a go then give me a shout.. I'm *littleme1969*.. Maybe I will see you there some time :)
Last but not least I would like to dedicate this song to a dear friend of mine :).. He sent me a lovely e.mail and I have not yet responded. It's sometimes hard to find the right words. So I hope the song will say it for me. This song always was one of our favs.. but funny with the passage of time the words mean so much more nowadays. Much love to you my friend :P
The words don't do this song justice, Its from the *Listen Without Prejudice* album.. you should give it a listen to appreciate it properly. :P
Cowboys and Angels George Michael
***************** *************
When your heart's in someone else's hands
Monkey see and monkey do
Their wish is your command
You're not to blame
Everyone's the same
All you do is love and love is all you do
I should know by now, the way I fought for you
You're not to blame
Everyone's the same
I know you think that you're safe
Mister
Harmless deception
That keeps love at bay
It's the ones who resist that we most want to kiss
Wouldn't you say?
Cowboys and angels
They all have the time for you
Why should I imagine
That I'd be a find for you
Why should I imagine
That I'd have something to say
But that scar on your face
That beautiful face of yours
In your heart there's a trace
Of someone before
When your heart's in someone else's plans
Things you say and things you do
They don't understand
It's such a shame
Always ends the same
You can call it love but I don't think it's true
You should know by now
I'm not the boy for you
You're not to blame
Always ends the same
I know you think that you're safe
Sister
Harmless affection
That keeps things this way
It's the ones who persist for the sake of a kiss
Who will pay
Cowboys and angels
They all take a shine to you
Why should I imagine that I was designed for you
Why should I believe
That you would stay
But that scar on your face
That beautiful face of yours
Don't you think that I know
They've hurt you before
Take this man to your bed
Maybe his hands will help you forget
Please be stronger than your past
The future may still give you a chance.
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
Change to the rules of engagement :(
Having re read the bit below I now smile to myself in a *You silly Moo* kinda way :P
Future rule being this!.. ALWAYS TRUST YOUR GUT REACTION!!!!.. rofl.
The guy turned out to be a d**h**d of a grade one magnitude :(
I find myself rapidly loosing the will to live when it comes to the male of the species :/.
Oh well I live to fight on another day.. A little more bruised in the ego department, but hey, its all a learning curve.
That brings me onto the subject of.. *can men and women really be friends, without sex rearing its ugly head?*
I know some people seem to manage it ok. And I have thought that at times myself. But when I dig a little deeper there is always an underlying sexual attraction fueling the friendship :/.. Almost like its better to have a small piece of a person than have nothing at all. Oh.. and the little glimmer of hope in the background that maybe one day you could be more than just good friends. I'm not sure what to make of it all myself :/
I have an Ex who I think the world of, even though we parted 11 years ago now, we are still close and keep in contact via phone e.mail etc. Mainly cos of the way we parted I think.
I always felt I was holding him back, stopping him doing what he wanted to , and the last thing I wanted was for him to come to me in future years and say "You're the reason I didn't make it!"... So I left. I'm sure he didn't understand at the time, though I did try and explain and have since also tried to explain my reasons.
And so the friendship remains. My husband put his foot down about 2 years ago and said I wasn't allowed to have anymore contact with him. He said it was obvious that there was still something between us. I did my best to convince him that there wasn't anything. We were just good friends and that was it! But deep inside I knew he was right.
So can men and women ever just be good friends? hmmmmmmmmmmmmm duno :/
Having re read the bit below I now smile to myself in a *You silly Moo* kinda way :P
Future rule being this!.. ALWAYS TRUST YOUR GUT REACTION!!!!.. rofl.
The guy turned out to be a d**h**d of a grade one magnitude :(
I find myself rapidly loosing the will to live when it comes to the male of the species :/.
Oh well I live to fight on another day.. A little more bruised in the ego department, but hey, its all a learning curve.
That brings me onto the subject of.. *can men and women really be friends, without sex rearing its ugly head?*
I know some people seem to manage it ok. And I have thought that at times myself. But when I dig a little deeper there is always an underlying sexual attraction fueling the friendship :/.. Almost like its better to have a small piece of a person than have nothing at all. Oh.. and the little glimmer of hope in the background that maybe one day you could be more than just good friends. I'm not sure what to make of it all myself :/
I have an Ex who I think the world of, even though we parted 11 years ago now, we are still close and keep in contact via phone e.mail etc. Mainly cos of the way we parted I think.
I always felt I was holding him back, stopping him doing what he wanted to , and the last thing I wanted was for him to come to me in future years and say "You're the reason I didn't make it!"... So I left. I'm sure he didn't understand at the time, though I did try and explain and have since also tried to explain my reasons.
And so the friendship remains. My husband put his foot down about 2 years ago and said I wasn't allowed to have anymore contact with him. He said it was obvious that there was still something between us. I did my best to convince him that there wasn't anything. We were just good friends and that was it! But deep inside I knew he was right.
So can men and women ever just be good friends? hmmmmmmmmmmmmm duno :/
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
Met My Match?
Life is a funny thing.. There I was sat minding my own business.. Getting on with my life, as you do... Making judgments about people from short conversations :/... When infront of me appears a person... A person who makes me look up from my sad excuse for a life and take note..... A person who has, despite my first impression, made an impact on me in a short space of time.... A Person who seems able to take what I dish out.. And what's more can give just as good as he gets :P.. It *seems* I have maybe met my match?.. You know who you are my friend :)
Its all very cryptic I know.. but just had to say something.
And the lesson for today is.. Don't Judge A Book By Its Cover.. Or it may just jump up and bite you when you're not looking :O
Feeling Bored ?.... Need a little brain stimulation?.. Got a fetish for birds?
GiveFowl Wordsa go.. But I worn you.. its a bit addictive..lol.. I have already paid for an upgrade!.. Well I did say I was a sad person with no life :).. And that just goes to prove it!
Life is a funny thing.. There I was sat minding my own business.. Getting on with my life, as you do... Making judgments about people from short conversations :/... When infront of me appears a person... A person who makes me look up from my sad excuse for a life and take note..... A person who has, despite my first impression, made an impact on me in a short space of time.... A Person who seems able to take what I dish out.. And what's more can give just as good as he gets :P.. It *seems* I have maybe met my match?.. You know who you are my friend :)
Its all very cryptic I know.. but just had to say something.
And the lesson for today is.. Don't Judge A Book By Its Cover.. Or it may just jump up and bite you when you're not looking :O
Feeling Bored ?.... Need a little brain stimulation?.. Got a fetish for birds?
GiveFowl Wordsa go.. But I worn you.. its a bit addictive..lol.. I have already paid for an upgrade!.. Well I did say I was a sad person with no life :).. And that just goes to prove it!
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
Brief Analysis
Your first name of Nicola has given you inspirational, idealistic, and dramatic qualities. You have a clever, deep mind and the talent to excel in highly inspirational lines of endeavour as a dramatist, musician, writer, or artist. You can be lifted by beauty in all forms and are at the most creative when inspired. Your expressive, affectionate nature responds quickly through your feelings, but you must guard against being possessive and jealous. Your delight in mystery and your sensitivity to things you do not understand could draw you into occult studies or religions. Unfortunately, it is difficult for you to retain emotional stability, for you can easily swing into moods of depression and self-pity. Your quick temper can flare up suddenly and be over as suddenly, leaving you very sorry for any suffering you have caused.
Spoooookkkkkkkkkkyyyyyyyyyyyy.. :O
This is so like me its scary... and I had a little giggle about the *possessive/gealousy* bit.
Check out yours Here.. and thanks to Ariel for the link :)
Your first name of Nicola has given you inspirational, idealistic, and dramatic qualities. You have a clever, deep mind and the talent to excel in highly inspirational lines of endeavour as a dramatist, musician, writer, or artist. You can be lifted by beauty in all forms and are at the most creative when inspired. Your expressive, affectionate nature responds quickly through your feelings, but you must guard against being possessive and jealous. Your delight in mystery and your sensitivity to things you do not understand could draw you into occult studies or religions. Unfortunately, it is difficult for you to retain emotional stability, for you can easily swing into moods of depression and self-pity. Your quick temper can flare up suddenly and be over as suddenly, leaving you very sorry for any suffering you have caused.
Spoooookkkkkkkkkkyyyyyyyyyyyy.. :O
This is so like me its scary... and I had a little giggle about the *possessive/gealousy* bit.
Check out yours Here.. and thanks to Ariel for the link :)
eeeerrrrrrrrrrmmmmmmmmmmm....
What can I say.. other than where has the time gone?
I'm back on broadband again :).. got the network sorted for the other PCs :) so we can all use the internet now .. and what's best is I have complete control :P.. YAY
One problem.. I seem to be having firewall issues. Despite me altering setting etc. I'm having problems seeing certain things. A lot of them on my own page :(.. cant see the adds at the bottom left.. which means I have to go to my stats page direct and the same is of the comments box. ggggggggrrrrrrrrrr.. I altered all the settings and sometimes I can see them and other times I can't. I never had a problem with the setting when I was on dial up.. Anyone got any ideas?
Despite that I'm enjoying the freedom that the faster connection brings and not tieing up the phone line. Makes music downloads great. :)
Golf............. errrrmmm well not much improvement on that front sadly :( and to be honest I have given up trying to get through to him. Maybe its time to play him at his own game :) and no I'm not taking up golf.. just time to start getting out more. When he walks in .. "Teas in the oven dear" then I'm walking out..lol In the 11 years we have been together I have never been one for going out without him. I'm always the reliable stay at home house wife. So much so the few times I have gone out, maybe to a friend or neighbor, for more than an hour he's on the phone wanting to know when I'm coming back.. gggrrrrrrrrrrr.. but yet its OK for him to go out at 8.30 am and return home at 10pm.. playing golf or so he says.. but that's fine.. he can't see why I have a problem.. or is it just me? To be honest I feel like a single parent :(.. with his only addition to the household being his wage.
When I got married 4 years ago I promised to love and care in sickness and health.. * no obey!!* but no where did it say to be ignored , and second in line to golf clubs! :( So no more trying to talk to him about it.. it gets me know where.. I'm not the kind of person to sit back and let someone walk over me... Over the years he has been a real arse to me, and I'm sure that his treatment of me was one of the main factors in the cause of my anxiety/self esteem problems. He's a control freak.. but sadly so I am.. but the difference been I only want to control me.. and don't want the resposibility of others.. he just wants to control everything.. Yes you guessed it.. I'm off men this week! So if you see me on the 10 O Clock news being led away from the house handcuffed... and a bloody body being taken from the house with what looks like a golf club rapped around its neck, Please be kind and send me letters of support. Do you think I will get a shorter sentence for mental torture?
Be kind to dum animals.. x
What can I say.. other than where has the time gone?
I'm back on broadband again :).. got the network sorted for the other PCs :) so we can all use the internet now .. and what's best is I have complete control :P.. YAY
One problem.. I seem to be having firewall issues. Despite me altering setting etc. I'm having problems seeing certain things. A lot of them on my own page :(.. cant see the adds at the bottom left.. which means I have to go to my stats page direct and the same is of the comments box. ggggggggrrrrrrrrrr.. I altered all the settings and sometimes I can see them and other times I can't. I never had a problem with the setting when I was on dial up.. Anyone got any ideas?
Despite that I'm enjoying the freedom that the faster connection brings and not tieing up the phone line. Makes music downloads great. :)
Golf............. errrrmmm well not much improvement on that front sadly :( and to be honest I have given up trying to get through to him. Maybe its time to play him at his own game :) and no I'm not taking up golf.. just time to start getting out more. When he walks in .. "Teas in the oven dear" then I'm walking out..lol In the 11 years we have been together I have never been one for going out without him. I'm always the reliable stay at home house wife. So much so the few times I have gone out, maybe to a friend or neighbor, for more than an hour he's on the phone wanting to know when I'm coming back.. gggrrrrrrrrrrr.. but yet its OK for him to go out at 8.30 am and return home at 10pm.. playing golf or so he says.. but that's fine.. he can't see why I have a problem.. or is it just me? To be honest I feel like a single parent :(.. with his only addition to the household being his wage.
When I got married 4 years ago I promised to love and care in sickness and health.. * no obey!!* but no where did it say to be ignored , and second in line to golf clubs! :( So no more trying to talk to him about it.. it gets me know where.. I'm not the kind of person to sit back and let someone walk over me... Over the years he has been a real arse to me, and I'm sure that his treatment of me was one of the main factors in the cause of my anxiety/self esteem problems. He's a control freak.. but sadly so I am.. but the difference been I only want to control me.. and don't want the resposibility of others.. he just wants to control everything.. Yes you guessed it.. I'm off men this week! So if you see me on the 10 O Clock news being led away from the house handcuffed... and a bloody body being taken from the house with what looks like a golf club rapped around its neck, Please be kind and send me letters of support. Do you think I will get a shorter sentence for mental torture?
Be kind to dum animals.. x
Saturday, September 27, 2003
RIP Harry :(
One of my fav pigs died the other day... aaaaaaaaaaaaawwwww.. Just buried him the garden this afternoon.. I must be careful .. Its starting to look like a graveyard and the neighbors will start to talk!... I'm down to just 10 now.. lol.. Yes I did say 10.. but when I was doing the rescue I had 38 in at one time :/.. that was hard work!!.. They are dying out slowly of old age now... 6 males and 4 females left.. but I expect to loose a few more over the winter as they are getting so old.. just like their owner ;P
A few useful bits for ya.........
Try Stickies.. Its fab.. Its post it notes for the PC without the paper..lol (pinched it from listeners site :/) I have been looking for a bit of software for ages to do this.. Loads better than lots of bits of paper lying around.. Great!!
And for all toughs poor people who run on XP and are being plagued by toughs messenger adds ever 2 mins. I have Norton security.. Firewall plus antivirus and it does not stop them!..gggggggggrrr. The guy who did my PC recommended Zonelabs If you scan through this you will find a free download firewall that does a great job.. and kills the bloody messenger adds.. YAY.. At last and you don't have to pay the 20/30 quid the others are asking.. That's what I like... FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
One of my fav pigs died the other day... aaaaaaaaaaaaawwwww.. Just buried him the garden this afternoon.. I must be careful .. Its starting to look like a graveyard and the neighbors will start to talk!... I'm down to just 10 now.. lol.. Yes I did say 10.. but when I was doing the rescue I had 38 in at one time :/.. that was hard work!!.. They are dying out slowly of old age now... 6 males and 4 females left.. but I expect to loose a few more over the winter as they are getting so old.. just like their owner ;P
A few useful bits for ya.........
Try Stickies.. Its fab.. Its post it notes for the PC without the paper..lol (pinched it from listeners site :/) I have been looking for a bit of software for ages to do this.. Loads better than lots of bits of paper lying around.. Great!!
And for all toughs poor people who run on XP and are being plagued by toughs messenger adds ever 2 mins. I have Norton security.. Firewall plus antivirus and it does not stop them!..gggggggggrrr. The guy who did my PC recommended Zonelabs If you scan through this you will find a free download firewall that does a great job.. and kills the bloody messenger adds.. YAY.. At last and you don't have to pay the 20/30 quid the others are asking.. That's what I like... FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Saturday, September 20, 2003
Design Flaw
I sometimes think that the big man upstairs is having a damn good laugh as he looks down on us poor creatures. Lets face it.. when he was sat there, at his drawing board, he must have thought *I know... this will spice the whole thing up and make these pathetic little creatures worth watching*.. what did he do?.. he made the sexes so incompatible that we haven't a snowballs chance in hell of ever getting on.. and the evidence is this......
Men withhold love to get sex...
Women withhold sex to get love... well were stuffed here straight away :(
Men can only do one thing at once...
while women can multi task.... Hence the reason for guys getting so upset when your doing the times crossword while having sex... That's if you ever get around to having sex because of the bit mentioned above :(
Men think in numbers and objects...
while women think in feelings and emotions... He's thinking *we can have sex twice before the footy comes on*(wishful thinking on my part... twice in half an hour... never!!) while she's thinking *Great.. an hour in bed .. a nice cuddle and a good chat after*.. She's no sooner got over the 'quick bonk' and he's either .. out of bed like a rat up a drain pipe or snoring his brains out within a second of his head touching the pillow!! :(
So with all that in mind.. I give in!!! Well never get on..so what's the point.. I have decided to become a lesbian... Again! :)
nite chucks.. sleep well x
I sometimes think that the big man upstairs is having a damn good laugh as he looks down on us poor creatures. Lets face it.. when he was sat there, at his drawing board, he must have thought *I know... this will spice the whole thing up and make these pathetic little creatures worth watching*.. what did he do?.. he made the sexes so incompatible that we haven't a snowballs chance in hell of ever getting on.. and the evidence is this......
Men withhold love to get sex...
Women withhold sex to get love... well were stuffed here straight away :(
Men can only do one thing at once...
while women can multi task.... Hence the reason for guys getting so upset when your doing the times crossword while having sex... That's if you ever get around to having sex because of the bit mentioned above :(
Men think in numbers and objects...
while women think in feelings and emotions... He's thinking *we can have sex twice before the footy comes on*(wishful thinking on my part... twice in half an hour... never!!) while she's thinking *Great.. an hour in bed .. a nice cuddle and a good chat after*.. She's no sooner got over the 'quick bonk' and he's either .. out of bed like a rat up a drain pipe or snoring his brains out within a second of his head touching the pillow!! :(
So with all that in mind.. I give in!!! Well never get on..so what's the point.. I have decided to become a lesbian... Again! :)
nite chucks.. sleep well x
Monday, September 15, 2003
Your soul is worth £60897. For your peace of mind, 9% of people have a purer soul than you.
To Find what your soul is worth try THIS
My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Thanks to Ariel For the above stuff.
16 again.. YAY I wish :) Always said I never felt any different from when I was at that age.. and that proves it..lol
What Have I been upto?
Well lots of things that I shouldn't.. but no change there then :P Its been a funny few weeks. Kids back to school and getting used to a empty house again :/ Its strange after 7 weeks of noise and kids running through the house.. then there is just me sat heretwiddlingg my thumbs.. and the quiet :I.. It will be great when I get used to it again.
In my frustration with the Golfing widow situation I joined an online datingagencyy.. LMAO.. I can here the intake of breath from you all.. Myy God..Whatt is she doing?..Hass she gone mad"..Welll no.. not mad.. just fed upIi guess :(
I was a half way good girl.. I put I just wanted e.mail friends/chat on my profile and was quite honest about my situation. Posted the profile and sat and waited for what would come through... I must admit I was a little taken a back by the response I got.. 50 e.mails in 2 weeks *GULP* sadly 90% of them are sex starved pervs with nothing better to do than pester poor golfing widows when they are feeling sorry for themselves. Oh well that will teach me!! I learnt a long time ago that men are *mostly* all the same so I was expecting it. I have been contacted by Guys from all walks of life and from all over the planet.. Its been an education and I hope that in the long term I will make some good friends too.. and who knows maybe Huband no 2..lol Well maybe not. But for the record I met my now husband from a computer dating agency some 13 years ago..lol
Yes.. I hear you cry. she still hasn't learnt her lesson!
Monday, September 01, 2003
Updates :)
YAY.. I log onto freeserve and I find they are now doing the package for free.. plus the first month free :).. There is a god after all.. so as soon as AOL get there Broadband off my line I'm in there quicker than a rat up a drainpipe. Not that I have ever seen a rat running up a drain pipe.. but I hear from reliable sources its pretty quick :)
Other than that the PC seems to be behaving itself.
FAT UPDATE
HHmmmmmmmmmm.. well for the poor people who have been known to read this site on the odd occasion. I'm sure you will remember me having a grumble about how I was acquiring extra bits of me.. mainly in the Butt/boobs/chins department :( Well some improvement..lol I have lost a few pounds (mainly on buying stuff for my sponge like Pc :) joke aside.. I have lost a bit.. but mainly due to a daily workout, bike riding,playing tennis with the kids and generally being more active.. I have lost inches which is better :) and the bits that had gone south for warmer climates have undertaken a rapid return :) You don't seem to realise how unfit you get until you try to workout and find yourself blowing and puffing like you smoke 40 a day :( no wonder things were looking limp and un interested in life. Well I feel much better for it and have even got that spring back in my step that I hadn't seen for many a year :)
SCHOOLS IN!!!
YAY get the flags out the kids are back to school next week.. I can't wait.. Days of peace and quiet .. going on the net when I want without the door going every 5 mins and a head popping round it to say "MMMMOOOOOOOMMMMMMM.. Can I Have.... ".. gggrrrrrrrrrrrrr and the constant pointless squabbles over nothing!.. I'm sure they just like to hear their own voices.
Daughter got her Exam results.. and considering she missed most of the last year at school, almost 50%, she did well.. she passed all 9 she took and got 4 Cs.. which was pretty darn good I think. She is returning to 6th form to do a few retakes to try and up a few grades and also do a year course In ICT.. so hopefully she should be able to teach me a few things!
Well that's all folks :P.. well not really but I will save the rest for another night :) x
YAY.. I log onto freeserve and I find they are now doing the package for free.. plus the first month free :).. There is a god after all.. so as soon as AOL get there Broadband off my line I'm in there quicker than a rat up a drainpipe. Not that I have ever seen a rat running up a drain pipe.. but I hear from reliable sources its pretty quick :)
Other than that the PC seems to be behaving itself.
FAT UPDATE
HHmmmmmmmmmm.. well for the poor people who have been known to read this site on the odd occasion. I'm sure you will remember me having a grumble about how I was acquiring extra bits of me.. mainly in the Butt/boobs/chins department :( Well some improvement..lol I have lost a few pounds (mainly on buying stuff for my sponge like Pc :) joke aside.. I have lost a bit.. but mainly due to a daily workout, bike riding,playing tennis with the kids and generally being more active.. I have lost inches which is better :) and the bits that had gone south for warmer climates have undertaken a rapid return :) You don't seem to realise how unfit you get until you try to workout and find yourself blowing and puffing like you smoke 40 a day :( no wonder things were looking limp and un interested in life. Well I feel much better for it and have even got that spring back in my step that I hadn't seen for many a year :)
SCHOOLS IN!!!
YAY get the flags out the kids are back to school next week.. I can't wait.. Days of peace and quiet .. going on the net when I want without the door going every 5 mins and a head popping round it to say "MMMMOOOOOOOMMMMMMM.. Can I Have.... ".. gggrrrrrrrrrrrrr and the constant pointless squabbles over nothing!.. I'm sure they just like to hear their own voices.
Daughter got her Exam results.. and considering she missed most of the last year at school, almost 50%, she did well.. she passed all 9 she took and got 4 Cs.. which was pretty darn good I think. She is returning to 6th form to do a few retakes to try and up a few grades and also do a year course In ICT.. so hopefully she should be able to teach me a few things!
Well that's all folks :P.. well not really but I will save the rest for another night :) x
Sunday, August 31, 2003
Hello..
What a week :(
Bloody Pcs... who would have em..:( For the people that did not know.. I got Broadband a couple of weeks ago.. well AOL Broadband..:( And yes the service is great.. Its very fast and makes the net experience much more enjoyable. But naughty me had let her anti virus subscription slide *Smack to one wrist* .. so I though.. quick upgrade it now I have broadband I'm a huge target.. So I did.. only to find that I was already infected with 2 worms and 2 trojans.. AArrgggg.. well I did the *removal tool* thing.. and thought that would be the end of it .. no.. afterwards things seemed ok.. but the next day when I logged things were very strange.. certain things just wouldn't run at all and others behaved erratically :(
So after trying to fix things for a few hours I mad the decision to do a complete reboot.. I had a computer guy coming in a few days so thought now was a god time to start a fresh. It wasn't too bad as I have 2 hard drives so was able to save the important stuff on there :).. took me best part of a day to get everything installed and up and running.. So I thought great.. That's the worst over with... NO!!!!!.. that would be too simple...
Computer guy comes.. fits the new bits I wanted.. extra USB2 plus a card reader... and also a switch for networking.... they say its really easy to network 2 XP PCs.. LMAO.. don't believe it!!.. well to cut a long story short after 3 hours and the poor guy leaving at 10.30pm.. we had the network up and running.. he said he would return the next day to sort out the internet bit... Great I though.. No more kids hogging my PC..:).. But No!!.. in the sad world that is my reality nothing is ever straight forward.:(
He returns the next evening.. and makes a start.. but try as we may.. we cant get the thing to work.. So in desperation I look in the AOL help files.. and what do I find.. "AOL DOES NOT SUPPORT NETWORKING".. gggrrrrrrr
could you believe it.. Never a mention of it when you sign up.. the buggers.. So I check on the message boards and yes.. you guessed it a page full of nasty posts about how poor people had spent mega bucks on wireless/routers to network PCs.. only to find they don't support it.
At this point I'm seeing red as my return period is up by a few days already and I'm now stuck with it.. my daughter cant access the internet at all from the upstairs PC and the whole point of getting broadband was so we could both be on at the same time.. GGGrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
So in my frustration I picks up the phone the next day and rings AOL.. I gave them such a stuffing about the lack of information when you sign up.. and how I was now stuck with this for 12months... The guy went away.. came back and said.. You can return it!.. I was surprised I didn't expect that at all.
Well to cut a long story only a little bit shorter I'm now back on dial up :(.. and it sucks..lol.. were things really this slow?...lol I have to wait a few weeks for the AOL survive to be removed from my line.. then hopefully I can get Freeserve broadband.. but the laugh is.. when I signed for AOL both of them were free.. and now Freeserve are charging £50 for the modem.. *BANGS HEAD AGAINST ROOM WALL* Does someone up there have it in for me?
sleep well chucks.. x x
What a week :(
Bloody Pcs... who would have em..:( For the people that did not know.. I got Broadband a couple of weeks ago.. well AOL Broadband..:( And yes the service is great.. Its very fast and makes the net experience much more enjoyable. But naughty me had let her anti virus subscription slide *Smack to one wrist* .. so I though.. quick upgrade it now I have broadband I'm a huge target.. So I did.. only to find that I was already infected with 2 worms and 2 trojans.. AArrgggg.. well I did the *removal tool* thing.. and thought that would be the end of it .. no.. afterwards things seemed ok.. but the next day when I logged things were very strange.. certain things just wouldn't run at all and others behaved erratically :(
So after trying to fix things for a few hours I mad the decision to do a complete reboot.. I had a computer guy coming in a few days so thought now was a god time to start a fresh. It wasn't too bad as I have 2 hard drives so was able to save the important stuff on there :).. took me best part of a day to get everything installed and up and running.. So I thought great.. That's the worst over with... NO!!!!!.. that would be too simple...
Computer guy comes.. fits the new bits I wanted.. extra USB2 plus a card reader... and also a switch for networking.... they say its really easy to network 2 XP PCs.. LMAO.. don't believe it!!.. well to cut a long story short after 3 hours and the poor guy leaving at 10.30pm.. we had the network up and running.. he said he would return the next day to sort out the internet bit... Great I though.. No more kids hogging my PC..:).. But No!!.. in the sad world that is my reality nothing is ever straight forward.:(
He returns the next evening.. and makes a start.. but try as we may.. we cant get the thing to work.. So in desperation I look in the AOL help files.. and what do I find.. "AOL DOES NOT SUPPORT NETWORKING".. gggrrrrrrr
could you believe it.. Never a mention of it when you sign up.. the buggers.. So I check on the message boards and yes.. you guessed it a page full of nasty posts about how poor people had spent mega bucks on wireless/routers to network PCs.. only to find they don't support it.
At this point I'm seeing red as my return period is up by a few days already and I'm now stuck with it.. my daughter cant access the internet at all from the upstairs PC and the whole point of getting broadband was so we could both be on at the same time.. GGGrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
So in my frustration I picks up the phone the next day and rings AOL.. I gave them such a stuffing about the lack of information when you sign up.. and how I was now stuck with this for 12months... The guy went away.. came back and said.. You can return it!.. I was surprised I didn't expect that at all.
Well to cut a long story only a little bit shorter I'm now back on dial up :(.. and it sucks..lol.. were things really this slow?...lol I have to wait a few weeks for the AOL survive to be removed from my line.. then hopefully I can get Freeserve broadband.. but the laugh is.. when I signed for AOL both of them were free.. and now Freeserve are charging £50 for the modem.. *BANGS HEAD AGAINST ROOM WALL* Does someone up there have it in for me?
sleep well chucks.. x x
Monday, August 25, 2003
I give in
Well I stopped trying to sort it..
so you'll have to make do with this till I get sorted.
And I got broadband.. Plus the added bonus of ever virus/bug known to man :(
but managed to avoid the blaster worm.lol
Sadly I have just had to spend the best part of a day rebooting this bloody PC.. And I still got loads more to do :/
then I will get the site sorted..
Ali.. I will send you mail soon hun!
Mr P. Glad to have you back sweetie :)
Husky.. Great about the new job!
Harry.. Hope your well .. you not been around much :(
Sweet dreams all :)
Well I stopped trying to sort it..
so you'll have to make do with this till I get sorted.
And I got broadband.. Plus the added bonus of ever virus/bug known to man :(
but managed to avoid the blaster worm.lol
Sadly I have just had to spend the best part of a day rebooting this bloody PC.. And I still got loads more to do :/
then I will get the site sorted..
Ali.. I will send you mail soon hun!
Mr P. Glad to have you back sweetie :)
Husky.. Great about the new job!
Harry.. Hope your well .. you not been around much :(
Sweet dreams all :)
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
Aint Nature Grand :)
I have put the pics as links rather than on the page..
Strange Grasshopper like insect :P
Bee on Globe Thistle
Bottoms up :O
I have put the pics as links rather than on the page..
Strange Grasshopper like insect :P
Bee on Globe Thistle
Bottoms up :O
Sunday, August 10, 2003
Saturday, August 09, 2003
You are Love.
You love life, you love all those around you and
the world that you live in. You are happiest
when you are doing something for someone else
or for the common good of mankind.
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Aaaaaaawww that's so like me ;P.. NOT!!
Come Undone.. Duran Duran
Can't ever keep from falling apart
At the seams
Can't I believe you're taking my heart to pieces?
Oh, it'll take a little time,
might take a little crime
to come undone now
We'll try to stay blind
to the hope and fear outside
Hey child, stay wilder than the wind
And blow me in to cry
Who do you need, who do you love
When you come undone
Words, playing me deja vu
Like a radio tune I swear I've heard before
Chill, is it something real
Or the magic I'm feeding off your fingers
Can't ever keep from falling apart
At the seams
Can I believe you're taking my heart
To pieces?
Lost, in a snow filled sky, we'll make it alright
To come undone now
We'll try to stay blind
to the hope and fear outside
Hey child, stay wilder than the wind
And blow me in to cry
Who do you need, who do you love
When you come undone
Another one of my fav tunes :) What I find amazing is the lack of understanding when a person has a mental problem of any kind :(.. I find some comfort in this song. It just goes to prove that we all have hard times in our lives, and all deal with it in different ways.. and if Coming Undone is your way .. then go for it :)
The problem is this.. when you're a *Young adult* everything is full of hope for the future.. what you're going to do and be .. who your going to do it with.. Owning your own place.. Marriage.. Kids.. Or just finding that special someone to share your life with.. all that future ahead. But the sad reality of getting toughs things.. the heartache.. obstacles struggles .. is something you never add into the equation... and as all these happen to you/around you.. it changes who you are bit by bit.. until one day.. many years down the line.. you look into a mirror and don't recognise the person looking back at you. 'How the hell did I get here?'.. 'Where has all that life gone?'... you see we're all too busy just trying to get through things .. over things.. round things... we somehow forget to live :( So it makes no wonder we have trouble coming to terms with things... Dealing with things while clinging on with our finger nails for dear life.
I'm the ripe old age of 34 now..:P and can honestly say that most of the people I know have at one time or another suffered some kind of mental problem.. but its sad that only a few will hold up there hand and admit it. Maybe if more people did stick their hands high in the air instead of keeping things behind closed doors .. the world would have to stop running for cover every time the words *Mental Illness* are uttered :/
Enough of this adult babbling.. I'm off to fly my Kite!! :)
Tuesday, August 05, 2003
Flying High
One of the good parts about being a parent is buying your kids things that you would of liked as a kid.. LMAO.. I know its sad but we all do it.... Examples being..Zoo Tycoon for PC.. LOL..... and when a little face opens it and says 'what's This Rubbish'.. The reply goes.. 'oh sorry I'm sure I heard you mention that you would like it'.. I add at this point these are on the spot presents and not birthday or Christmas.. Even I'm not that cruel :).. The latest of my purchases was a kite :).. Bought along with a lot of other outside play goodies to entertain the kids in this nice weather.... After all I wouldn't want the shop owner to think I was buying it for myself ;) that would never do!!
Well today we finally had enough wind to give it a test run.. So off we went with half the kids from the estate in tow... grrrr.. It was ACE.. its a stunt kite with a very long tail. At this point I will let out sadistic mum!!.. LOL.. you'll see why in a min.. We did note while attempting to fly the thing that it would suddenly develop a will of its own .. do a triple Loop one way fly high into the air and then dive at light speed crashing to the ground..:) As all good parents do I heard the words of my own Parents being screeched from my mouth.. "Don't.. Stop It.. It will all end in tears". The words that came out were ..... "Don't get too close kids cos if it comes down on your head you'll be in casualty".. LMAO.. And yes we all know what's coming next don't we ;P
Well my lovely son in his usual grumpy way when he's tired decided not to listen.. and the words had no sooner started to leave my mouth when in a split second it plummeted did a loop the loop.. Lined itself up on his head and made a light speed dive... What can I say I laughed so hard I had to picked from the floor by a passer by.. And poor William.. Well he picked himself with a dazed look in his eye and said.. "Is it time to go home mum?"..
One of the good parts about being a parent is buying your kids things that you would of liked as a kid.. LMAO.. I know its sad but we all do it.... Examples being..Zoo Tycoon for PC.. LOL..... and when a little face opens it and says 'what's This Rubbish'.. The reply goes.. 'oh sorry I'm sure I heard you mention that you would like it'.. I add at this point these are on the spot presents and not birthday or Christmas.. Even I'm not that cruel :).. The latest of my purchases was a kite :).. Bought along with a lot of other outside play goodies to entertain the kids in this nice weather.... After all I wouldn't want the shop owner to think I was buying it for myself ;) that would never do!!
Well today we finally had enough wind to give it a test run.. So off we went with half the kids from the estate in tow... grrrr.. It was ACE.. its a stunt kite with a very long tail. At this point I will let out sadistic mum!!.. LOL.. you'll see why in a min.. We did note while attempting to fly the thing that it would suddenly develop a will of its own .. do a triple Loop one way fly high into the air and then dive at light speed crashing to the ground..:) As all good parents do I heard the words of my own Parents being screeched from my mouth.. "Don't.. Stop It.. It will all end in tears". The words that came out were ..... "Don't get too close kids cos if it comes down on your head you'll be in casualty".. LMAO.. And yes we all know what's coming next don't we ;P
Well my lovely son in his usual grumpy way when he's tired decided not to listen.. and the words had no sooner started to leave my mouth when in a split second it plummeted did a loop the loop.. Lined itself up on his head and made a light speed dive... What can I say I laughed so hard I had to picked from the floor by a passer by.. And poor William.. Well he picked himself with a dazed look in his eye and said.. "Is it time to go home mum?"..
Monday, August 04, 2003
Is it hot enough for ya?
Yes is the answer.. always a good sign when you can fry eggs on the BBQ top without it being lit...LOL And its going to get even hotter :O.. I'm happy to report that after a bit of sunbathing I'm my usual dishwater beige colour :(.. Most people go brown.. or a strange orange..me.. Its hard to say really.. I just look like I need a good wash :(.. Oh well
Well I have lost the will to live over the page colour and background :(.. and this RED is way to bright.. I want it to say softly "I'm red.. come and love me".. not scream "RED IM DESPERATE COME AND HAVE ME!!".. So more playing is needed But can you see it folks?.. That's the big one?
and what's more.. Does anyone give a damn?
I found this on a page the other night.. its a must for all Tenacious D Fans.. but its XX rated.. so no under 18s please.. come to think of it.. they would know more about the subject matter than us 10 years married types would ;) It takes a while to download but its worth it.. Well that's my opinion.. I will prob get lots of nasty comments saying.. "What is this crap.. Have you gone mad?"
Sleep well x
Yes is the answer.. always a good sign when you can fry eggs on the BBQ top without it being lit...LOL And its going to get even hotter :O.. I'm happy to report that after a bit of sunbathing I'm my usual dishwater beige colour :(.. Most people go brown.. or a strange orange..me.. Its hard to say really.. I just look like I need a good wash :(.. Oh well
Well I have lost the will to live over the page colour and background :(.. and this RED is way to bright.. I want it to say softly "I'm red.. come and love me".. not scream "RED IM DESPERATE COME AND HAVE ME!!".. So more playing is needed But can you see it folks?.. That's the big one?
and what's more.. Does anyone give a damn?
I found this on a page the other night.. its a must for all Tenacious D Fans.. but its XX rated.. so no under 18s please.. come to think of it.. they would know more about the subject matter than us 10 years married types would ;) It takes a while to download but its worth it.. Well that's my opinion.. I will prob get lots of nasty comments saying.. "What is this crap.. Have you gone mad?"
Sleep well x
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