eeeerrrrrrrrrrmmmmmmmmmmm....

What can I say.. other than where has the time gone?
I'm back on broadband again :).. got the network sorted for the other PCs :) so we can all use the internet now .. and what's best is I have complete control :P.. YAY
One problem.. I seem to be having firewall issues. Despite me altering setting etc. I'm having problems seeing certain things. A lot of them on my own page :(.. cant see the adds at the bottom left.. which means I have to go to my stats page direct and the same is of the comments box. ggggggggrrrrrrrrrr.. I altered all the settings and sometimes I can see them and other times I can't. I never had a problem with the setting when I was on dial up.. Anyone got any ideas?

Despite that I'm enjoying the freedom that the faster connection brings and not tieing up the phone line. Makes music downloads great. :)

Golf............. errrrmmm well not much improvement on that front sadly :( and to be honest I have given up trying to get through to him. Maybe its time to play him at his own game :) and no I'm not taking up golf.. just time to start getting out more. When he walks in .. "Teas in the oven dear" then I'm walking out..lol In the 11 years we have been together I have never been one for going out without him. I'm always the reliable stay at home house wife. So much so the few times I have gone out, maybe to a friend or neighbor, for more than an hour he's on the phone wanting to know when I'm coming back.. gggrrrrrrrrrrr.. but yet its OK for him to go out at 8.30 am and return home at 10pm.. playing golf or so he says.. but that's fine.. he can't see why I have a problem.. or is it just me? To be honest I feel like a single parent :(.. with his only addition to the household being his wage.
When I got married 4 years ago I promised to love and care in sickness and health.. * no obey!!* but no where did it say to be ignored , and second in line to golf clubs! :( So no more trying to talk to him about it.. it gets me know where.. I'm not the kind of person to sit back and let someone walk over me... Over the years he has been a real arse to me, and I'm sure that his treatment of me was one of the main factors in the cause of my anxiety/self esteem problems. He's a control freak.. but sadly so I am.. but the difference been I only want to control me.. and don't want the resposibility of others.. he just wants to control everything.. Yes you guessed it.. I'm off men this week! So if you see me on the 10 O Clock news being led away from the house handcuffed... and a bloody body being taken from the house with what looks like a golf club rapped around its neck, Please be kind and send me letters of support. Do you think I will get a shorter sentence for mental torture?

Be kind to dum animals.. x