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Yup... and the front bit is here too :P.. What can I say... ermmmmmmmmmm.. Laziness.... ermmm...more laziness... and yes folks.. maybe a bit or mulling over things too :P... but I have been busy too. Its that time of year again.. Costume making for the school play :/.. and this year folks were going to be a grandfather clock!!!.. Yes you did hear that right... so you can guess the fun I have been having over the past few weeks with a hot glue gun lots of cardboard and sticky tape... YAY.. well maybe not so YAY... I will put a pic up of my efforts on the picture site when he does the play.. so you can all laugh with me *or should that read at me:(*
One of the main reasons for not saying much is I feel sometimes there is so much crap in my head its best to say nothing. As I would only regret it afterwards. I have many a time written things on here and the given myself a good kicking afterwards when re reading it back..lol.. The last 2 posts being a good example of this :).. So its.. keep ones rubbish to ones self from now on. Till I'm feeling more human and more able to have an adult conversation instead of tempering like a 2 year old when I don't get my own way :P.

I had some nice e.mails of people, they were no doubt wondering if I had gone back to gibbering and living the life of a hermit..:).. But no.. Things are OK with me.. Just needed to get a few things straight In my head that's all. A little time out so to speak. I have had time away from messenger too, so some of you have noticed and sent me e.mail wondering why. Mainly cos I have been busy back in Worlds 3D... Its a bit addictive :P.. I'm so into it I have even started to make my own AV's..Now that is sad!.. So if you fancy a go then give me a shout.. I'm *littleme1969*.. Maybe I will see you there some time :)

Last but not least I would like to dedicate this song to a dear friend of mine :).. He sent me a lovely e.mail and I have not yet responded. It's sometimes hard to find the right words. So I hope the song will say it for me. This song always was one of our favs.. but funny with the passage of time the words mean so much more nowadays. Much love to you my friend :P
The words don't do this song justice, Its from the *Listen Without Prejudice* album.. you should give it a listen to appreciate it properly. :P

Cowboys and Angels George Michael
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When your heart's in someone else's hands
Monkey see and monkey do
Their wish is your command
You're not to blame
Everyone's the same

All you do is love and love is all you do
I should know by now, the way I fought for you
You're not to blame
Everyone's the same

I know you think that you're safe
Mister
Harmless deception
That keeps love at bay
It's the ones who resist that we most want to kiss
Wouldn't you say?
Cowboys and angels
They all have the time for you
Why should I imagine
That I'd be a find for you
Why should I imagine
That I'd have something to say
But that scar on your face
That beautiful face of yours
In your heart there's a trace
Of someone before

When your heart's in someone else's plans
Things you say and things you do
They don't understand
It's such a shame
Always ends the same

You can call it love but I don't think it's true
You should know by now
I'm not the boy for you
You're not to blame
Always ends the same

I know you think that you're safe
Sister
Harmless affection
That keeps things this way
It's the ones who persist for the sake of a kiss
Who will pay
Cowboys and angels
They all take a shine to you
Why should I imagine that I was designed for you
Why should I believe
That you would stay

But that scar on your face
That beautiful face of yours
Don't you think that I know
They've hurt you before

Take this man to your bed
Maybe his hands will help you forget
Please be stronger than your past
The future may still give you a chance.