Saturday, November 12, 2005

It never rains.. its just bloody pisses it down!! :(

Well what can I say other than AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
To say its been a rough few months would be the understatement of the decade, hence the lack of posts ? You know how it is.. you think your on the floor and you can’t get any lower. then WHAM!! Fate comes and gives you a bloody good kicking in the ribs to make sure you’ll stay down a while. But.. as ever… you get through it …round it ..Over it… until you make it to the other side ? a little wiser for the experience and hopefully not too scared by the whole process.
I did sit down and write a good page about a month ago.. in the midst of this stuff.. but blogger did its usual trick of eating it rather than publishing it ..ROFL .. So I sat there.. Red faced and decided for the sake of sanity to walk away ..lol
So whats been going on.. errrrrrrrrrrmmmmmmm .. well my beloved daughter had a not so good go at slashing her wrists on the eve of her 18th birthday.. that was back in August. All over her bloody boyfriend.. gggggggrrrrrrrrr.. kids.. you just can’t tell em anything. Gad to report that she is now OK.. feeling positive, has a new job… but sadly still with the same boyfriend **BANGS HEAD AGAINST BRICK WALL**

I had a brush with a mad nurse and a lolly stick ? that turned out to be *In need of further investigation* So after waiting 2 months for the first test results I had to go back to be attacked yet again by afore mentioned mad nurse with ..yes you guessed it.. another even sharper lolly stick!! (Sorry guys.. it’s a woman thing) and after waiting another 6 weeks of torture they finally sent me the results saying “I’m just fine” and “sorry it was a bit of a mix up”!!.. Thanks guys.. just what I needed while I was having a nervous breakdown.. something real to worry about.. ROFL So that’s now all sorted thank goodness.
Husband did his plumbing course.. and enjoyed it. We have been self employed for some 5 years now, but mainly working for one guy with the pigs. This so called friend of Robs didn’t like the idea he was trying to better himself, so gave poor Rob only weeks to get the business up and running before he put him out of work.. The Bastard!!.. I mean really.. he knows full well he has a mortgage 2 kids and a nervous wreck for a wife. So its been panic stations trying to get things up and running.. Poor rob has also nearly had a nervous breakdown trying to sort it all and come to terms with it. So I’ve been worrying about him, worrying about money.. worrying about my daughter.. Oh yes and my son started high school.. so I’ve been worrying about him too. I hated school so much that having to send my kids into that situation has been a real problem for me. Having seen my daughter struggle so much with it all.. the thought of William having to go through the same.. just fills me with total dread. But its all part of life I guess. They have to find their own ways through things, with a little help and lots of support from parents ?

Other than a few other background stuff that’s a bit personal and I don’t want to bring other people into it, that’s been about it..ROFL.. lots of worrying… Hey.. no change there then. But on the positive side my weight is almost back to normal.. the anxiety is under control.. **well most of the time** and other than this never ending cold/sinus infection..lol I feel OK

Off to bed me thinks.. for another night of **Insomnia**.. and sadly that’s not a new sexual position I discovered on the net ?.. Nite nite x x

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