There's a girl inside the woman
Who's waiting to get free
She's washed a million dishes
She's always making tea
They think she's just a mother
With nothing left inside
Who swapped her dreams for drudgery
The day she was a bride
But the dreams were not forgotten
Just wrapped and packed away
In the hope that she could take them out
And dust them off one day......
There's a girl inside the woman
And the mother she became
And half-remembered songs come to her lips again......
The girl would sing the melody
But the woman stands in doubt
And wonders what the price would be
For letting the young girl out.
Thanks to http://arielpayit4ward.blogspot.com/ for the above.. kinda made me smile..
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Fate
What a strange thing it is :/.. I believe that everything happens for a reason .. even the bad stuff. If you can stay strong and keep it together long enough to get through a situation then finding a positive edge on the outcome is the next step. This allows you to improve as a person as you travel along that rollercoaster that is called life. Ok my life has never really been easy, and just when I'm on my knees and think I can't take it any more fate gives me a good kick in the ribs to make sure I'm totally flat out. But on the positive side people.. when you're on the floor already.. the only wayleft is up!!! and what does not kill you makes you stronger and hopefully a more considerate human being to others and their feelings.
Lecture over!!.. lol
I'm constantly amazed by the how my life seems to be just mulling along OK then something or someone steps into it, when you had lost all hope of things ever changing. So as much as fate can kick you when you are down..it will rise you up when you least expect it. Something or should I say someone has just happened to my life that has totally changed my outlook on who I thought I was and where I thought I wanted my future to go... Out of blue.. BANG. when you least expect it.. Its bonkers!!.. but very uplifting and a joy to experience. I have learnt so much this last 2 weeks about who I am, and why I behave the way I do to others. My relationship with my daughter and where my future is heading. All very positive stuff!! and if It comes to nothing in the end I will be a much better person for having had this person in my life.
So what I'm trying to say folks is this.. don't ever give up!!.. don't ever stop dreaming,wanting and hoping.. cos one day when you're sat there thinking well that's it then... good things will happen and remind you of how great life is and how lucky we are to be here and experience it.
xx
Lecture over!!.. lol
I'm constantly amazed by the how my life seems to be just mulling along OK then something or someone steps into it, when you had lost all hope of things ever changing. So as much as fate can kick you when you are down..it will rise you up when you least expect it. Something or should I say someone has just happened to my life that has totally changed my outlook on who I thought I was and where I thought I wanted my future to go... Out of blue.. BANG. when you least expect it.. Its bonkers!!.. but very uplifting and a joy to experience. I have learnt so much this last 2 weeks about who I am, and why I behave the way I do to others. My relationship with my daughter and where my future is heading. All very positive stuff!! and if It comes to nothing in the end I will be a much better person for having had this person in my life.
So what I'm trying to say folks is this.. don't ever give up!!.. don't ever stop dreaming,wanting and hoping.. cos one day when you're sat there thinking well that's it then... good things will happen and remind you of how great life is and how lucky we are to be here and experience it.
xx
Sunday, January 16, 2005
New Look
I thought as it was a new year I would have a new look .:) Something to express my personality...
Well that would be totally bonkers and lost the plot then I guess :/ Oh well It will have to do for now.
Well that would be totally bonkers and lost the plot then I guess :/ Oh well It will have to do for now.
Saturday, January 15, 2005
New Year
Well Its been eventful if nothing else. With the problems the world has suffered since Christmas it kind of left me speechless :/ so much death an destruction :( finding words that describe how you feel are really hard at such times as these, so I felt it best to say nothing. But what I will say is.. my heart goes out to all the people affected by this disaster. Even my own family know someone who has not returned and is believed dead. So my thoughts and prayers are with you all at such a sad time.
On a more positive note.. they say good things come from such tragedy's.. and how great it is to see the world pulling together in a desperate attempt to help these people and the areas they live. It has restored my faith in human nature, and maybe..just maybe.. we do have a long term future together on this planet afterall :)
The Gibbering Wreck
What has become of her?..where did she go?.. Its hard to believe that 2 years ago when I started this blog just how bad I felt. How much anxiety ruled my life from day to day.. Minute to minute. Ok I still have the odd bad day.. but they are few and far between these days. For the first time in the whole of my life. I feel well.. In control.. and content with who I am and where I'm going.. all I have to do now is get a grip on my ever growing butt and boobs..lol that's my only ish for this year.. get my fitness back to where it was before all this happened. And I'm well on the way to my goal with that :)
I'd like to take this opportunity to point the gibbering amongst us to a website that I feel will be great help to them... http://www.panicsurvivor.com/ Its a great site full of info and stories with a positive edge. Plus people who will listen and give help and advise.. go on.. give it a go.. and send sunbaked my love:) and best wishes on his own journey.
Iraq
Once again another subject close to my heart. My brother is out there at the moment doing his 6 month tour. It scares the s**t out of me to think of where he is and what he is doing :( Ok he's been in the army a lot of years and as a staff sergeant he knows what he's doing, but still my heart jumps every time I see something on the news. He only has 4 years left before he can retire with a full pension, and for something to happen to him now... all I can do is hope he makes it home in one piece I guess. Same as all the other families with loved ones out there.
Friday, December 17, 2004
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Late as ever :)
Sorry missed yesterday...so much to do, so little time..lol
Todays offering of strangeness..
**Note...for some strange reason he has changed his site(painfreak below)... Typical :(**
Some people really worry me..lol check this out... http://painlessfreak.blogspot.com/ What is the point as ask myself.. but it did make me laugh.. maybe I need more help than I first thought!! :/
Well if your feeling bored and a little brain dead how about this.. http://www.primarygames.com/holidays/christmas/games/mutanttrees/start.htm
Mutant crimbo trees..ROFL.. whatever next.. and I see that bloody elf from last year is back doing the rounds again..lol
Have fun!!
Sunday, December 12, 2004
Saturday, December 11, 2004
**Humbug**
In my sad attempt to not be such a grouch this year I have decided to do a little advent calendar..lol I know its a bit late to start but better late than never :)
On offering of net rubbish wil be served up here daily of whatever junk I can find out there.
Today's offering... webcams :)
http://www.webcamsearch.com/links/cgi-bin/frames.pl?id=12527
Santa in his groto in lapland..or did I read it wrong..lol
http://www.webcamsearch.com/links/cgi-bin/frames.pl?id=12531
Tree cam..lol this says it all and the music is just so bloody anoying...LOL
Have fun people :)
Friday, December 10, 2004
"Crimbo"
Well its that time of year again folks..Eat too much..spend too much..then spend next year trying to pay back for this year :/ Getting stuffed too much in more ways than one ;)
The usual Pig arrived im my utility :( in bits mind you. .that does help. .and it was dead too, also a help when you're trying to cut it up and bag it :P So its been a mad chopping , packing and trying to rehome all its porky portions :) We must be mad. .we do it every year :/ I still got about 7 chunks of last years big mamma in the freezer. Oh well..
I was a little miffed when I came into the office to find 2 eyeballs 1 ear and a snout staring up at me :(... What my husband thinks is a joke. .I'm not so sure myself . .its was offal..lol
I'm currently sporting a rather attractive brace people :/ In a momant of madness I decided to have something done about my top teath. They have bugged me for years, all crooked and the fang that sticks out of the side. I looked like a half cocked vampire, not an attractive look at all :( So its ...talking complete rubbish and no one understands a word I say ...time. And my mouth hurts so much I haven't even got the strength to shout at the kids!. .lol And when I do they just laugh at me and make nasty comments about "how they could'nt understand a word I just spluttered"..grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr So i'm keeping a low profile for a while. Just while I learn to speak again. The dentist assures me it will only take about 12 months..lol
Its nearly time for a blog re vamp me thinks :) and I have just the graphic in mind, if only I could remmember how to use my paint shop pro. .lol Its the brace. .the super fang must be attached to my brain and I'm currently picking up radio 2 with great ease, sadly this is having a mind numbing effect on my brain and leaving me with periods of lost memory, and I keep dropping off to sleep without any notice.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Damn that Steve Right!!
Enough for now.....
Note for the day!!
Be carefull what pet you choose!!.. as its well known we grow to look like them in the end!
If you scroll below you can see mine...so that wil give you a great idea of what I look like ;) the dog is a great give away :P
Well its that time of year again folks..Eat too much..spend too much..then spend next year trying to pay back for this year :/ Getting stuffed too much in more ways than one ;)
The usual Pig arrived im my utility :( in bits mind you. .that does help. .and it was dead too, also a help when you're trying to cut it up and bag it :P So its been a mad chopping , packing and trying to rehome all its porky portions :) We must be mad. .we do it every year :/ I still got about 7 chunks of last years big mamma in the freezer. Oh well..
I was a little miffed when I came into the office to find 2 eyeballs 1 ear and a snout staring up at me :(... What my husband thinks is a joke. .I'm not so sure myself . .its was offal..lol
I'm currently sporting a rather attractive brace people :/ In a momant of madness I decided to have something done about my top teath. They have bugged me for years, all crooked and the fang that sticks out of the side. I looked like a half cocked vampire, not an attractive look at all :( So its ...talking complete rubbish and no one understands a word I say ...time. And my mouth hurts so much I haven't even got the strength to shout at the kids!. .lol And when I do they just laugh at me and make nasty comments about "how they could'nt understand a word I just spluttered"..grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr So i'm keeping a low profile for a while. Just while I learn to speak again. The dentist assures me it will only take about 12 months..lol
Its nearly time for a blog re vamp me thinks :) and I have just the graphic in mind, if only I could remmember how to use my paint shop pro. .lol Its the brace. .the super fang must be attached to my brain and I'm currently picking up radio 2 with great ease, sadly this is having a mind numbing effect on my brain and leaving me with periods of lost memory, and I keep dropping off to sleep without any notice.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Damn that Steve Right!!
Enough for now.....
Note for the day!!
Be carefull what pet you choose!!.. as its well known we grow to look like them in the end!
If you scroll below you can see mine...so that wil give you a great idea of what I look like ;) the dog is a great give away :P
Monday, November 15, 2004
***BLANK***
Sorry couldn't think of a title :)
what's been going on bro?........ erm duno really too damn busy to draw breath I guess. What with B & Q proving to be a pain in the butt with my multi coloured bathroom. LOL oh yes finally got all the bits..takes of wrapping to fit them and they are different shades...ggggggggrrrrrr. I give in. So I know have a bath fitted (looks good)...we had to put the old sink back in as the other would take another 28 days... but sadly the new fittings wouldn't reach the old sink...so I have a sink with no water :/ my god!! oh yes and lets not get into the loo saga..we could be here all night :(
With the new office/workroom space I decided to get stuck in with the chess sets again. Sadly it seems every tom dick and talentless harry has decided to have a go too, so e.bay is now awash with hand made (but I must say naff!!) chess sets. So I have had to pick up my game so to speak. I have built a new website with hosting this time so no adds!! made new templates for my auctions and employed every underhanded tactic in the book to get ahead. Well hey what is a girl to do when the going gets tough!!..
Fish............ erm yes I got lots of them :P.. I now have 4 tanks..ROFL and my fish are breeding like mad, about 100 babies so far..lol oh yes and the apple snails are rampant too!! but they take forever to hatch :( fingers crossed I get lots of babies from the many clusters of eggs they have laid.
Husband........ still playing golf!! enough said on that subject!!. He was stood on the toilet seat the other day, tiling the wall behind it when I heard a sudden crash.. I just left him too it cos he gets real grumpy if you try and help. Anyhow 20 mins later he hobbles down the stairs looking dazed and unhapppy...shame I thought..(not!!) turns out he fell through the old toilet seat straight into the loo..ROFL.. but he managed to get a huge pieces of plastic from the seat tuck in the sole of his foot..OUCHHHHHHHHH. nasty gash too..and blood all over the bathroom. serves him right. I told him to use the step stool..but he never listens to me :/
part 2 when I can get my butt in gear :P
Sorry couldn't think of a title :)
what's been going on bro?........ erm duno really too damn busy to draw breath I guess. What with B & Q proving to be a pain in the butt with my multi coloured bathroom. LOL oh yes finally got all the bits..takes of wrapping to fit them and they are different shades...ggggggggrrrrrr. I give in. So I know have a bath fitted (looks good)...we had to put the old sink back in as the other would take another 28 days... but sadly the new fittings wouldn't reach the old sink...so I have a sink with no water :/ my god!! oh yes and lets not get into the loo saga..we could be here all night :(
With the new office/workroom space I decided to get stuck in with the chess sets again. Sadly it seems every tom dick and talentless harry has decided to have a go too, so e.bay is now awash with hand made (but I must say naff!!) chess sets. So I have had to pick up my game so to speak. I have built a new website with hosting this time so no adds!! made new templates for my auctions and employed every underhanded tactic in the book to get ahead. Well hey what is a girl to do when the going gets tough!!..
Fish............ erm yes I got lots of them :P.. I now have 4 tanks..ROFL and my fish are breeding like mad, about 100 babies so far..lol oh yes and the apple snails are rampant too!! but they take forever to hatch :( fingers crossed I get lots of babies from the many clusters of eggs they have laid.
Husband........ still playing golf!! enough said on that subject!!. He was stood on the toilet seat the other day, tiling the wall behind it when I heard a sudden crash.. I just left him too it cos he gets real grumpy if you try and help. Anyhow 20 mins later he hobbles down the stairs looking dazed and unhapppy...shame I thought..(not!!) turns out he fell through the old toilet seat straight into the loo..ROFL.. but he managed to get a huge pieces of plastic from the seat tuck in the sole of his foot..OUCHHHHHHHHH. nasty gash too..and blood all over the bathroom. serves him right. I told him to use the step stool..but he never listens to me :/
part 2 when I can get my butt in gear :P
Monday, September 27, 2004
I just had to post this..ROFL....
Well its been totally mad here..lots of builders butts... ginger electricians leaving my freezer turned off..grrrrrrrr... plumbers..gas fitters... need I go on. But yes folks we finally got it all sorted... Garage converted..daughter moved in!!!..that gets the noisy trout out of the way and maybe now we can all get some sleep. Her old room re vamped and decorated for William.. who is way chuffed with all the space.. and he can finally have his mates round to play on his X.Box..YAY.. its not talking room and the TV in the living room!!!.. Dining room back to what its meant to be.. so we can now eat food in comfort!!!.. Hey Men to that folks.. and yes...the most important of all I got my OFFICE/CHESS WORKROOM :).. I can shut the door and hide away..its fab!!.. also got a new PC to go with it.. I'm in heaven :).. Oh yes and the new 5' x 2' x 18" tank that has taken over the living room.. ROFL... Ok maybe I have a problem with visualizing size of objects..LOL Bought it of E.bay for bargain price.. Took 3 Strong guys to lift the bloody thing!! Its now full of fish/weed/wood and looks bloody fab!! :) Pics to follow
All I have to do now is swap the PC for the new one.. set these one up in sons new room and set up a new home network!!.. Then its all done....well almost..they have to come back to do the bathroom. Slight problem with that though.. seems B & Q don't think that a toilet is part of a bathroom suite..lol "Oh sorry madame you seem to be missing your pan".. "Really delivery man!!.. you don't say" "And what am I to do with no loo please tell me?"... "erm duno about that"... god the guy was thick and he had ginger hair too.. I'm beginning to have a problem with guys with ginger hair..GGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR I think there should be screening so non of them ever make it past the Fallopian tube!!
Daughter returned to school..lol really.. can't believe it myself.. well it was either that or get a job!!!.. she thought school was the easy option. She did pass her ICT course last year, despite never going to any lessons..lol The school refused to let her back at first.. but after a few phone calls she got in. Shes doing psychology Performing arts and textiles..lol God help the world when she's gets out there for real is all I can say!
After 12 years of doing the school run I find myself redundant :). William has started walking too and from school on his own..bless him :P Its kind of sad though... my baby's are all grown up :/ it makes me feel like I have wished away their lives so I can have mine back. And the bloody anxiety ribbed me of 4 years too. But I still feel really lucky.. most people never get over it. and her is me living life like it never happened :) I just wish I could take hold of people who suffer and help them in some way to see it the way I see it..then the penny would drop as it did with me. If the truth be known I'd heal the world if I could.. one life sacrifice for a better future for the human race .. It would be worth it!!!
I never really went into what the clairvoyant said to me did I?.. I#ll leave that for another day :P
Have a good one and love the ones closest to you, cos you never know when they will be gone :/ nite nite
| Your Boobies' Names Are: Beavis and Butthead
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Well its been totally mad here..lots of builders butts... ginger electricians leaving my freezer turned off..grrrrrrrr... plumbers..gas fitters... need I go on. But yes folks we finally got it all sorted... Garage converted..daughter moved in!!!..that gets the noisy trout out of the way and maybe now we can all get some sleep. Her old room re vamped and decorated for William.. who is way chuffed with all the space.. and he can finally have his mates round to play on his X.Box..YAY.. its not talking room and the TV in the living room!!!.. Dining room back to what its meant to be.. so we can now eat food in comfort!!!.. Hey Men to that folks.. and yes...the most important of all I got my OFFICE/CHESS WORKROOM :).. I can shut the door and hide away..its fab!!.. also got a new PC to go with it.. I'm in heaven :).. Oh yes and the new 5' x 2' x 18" tank that has taken over the living room.. ROFL... Ok maybe I have a problem with visualizing size of objects..LOL Bought it of E.bay for bargain price.. Took 3 Strong guys to lift the bloody thing!! Its now full of fish/weed/wood and looks bloody fab!! :) Pics to follow
All I have to do now is swap the PC for the new one.. set these one up in sons new room and set up a new home network!!.. Then its all done....well almost..they have to come back to do the bathroom. Slight problem with that though.. seems B & Q don't think that a toilet is part of a bathroom suite..lol "Oh sorry madame you seem to be missing your pan".. "Really delivery man!!.. you don't say" "And what am I to do with no loo please tell me?"... "erm duno about that"... god the guy was thick and he had ginger hair too.. I'm beginning to have a problem with guys with ginger hair..GGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR I think there should be screening so non of them ever make it past the Fallopian tube!!
Daughter returned to school..lol really.. can't believe it myself.. well it was either that or get a job!!!.. she thought school was the easy option. She did pass her ICT course last year, despite never going to any lessons..lol The school refused to let her back at first.. but after a few phone calls she got in. Shes doing psychology Performing arts and textiles..lol God help the world when she's gets out there for real is all I can say!
After 12 years of doing the school run I find myself redundant :). William has started walking too and from school on his own..bless him :P Its kind of sad though... my baby's are all grown up :/ it makes me feel like I have wished away their lives so I can have mine back. And the bloody anxiety ribbed me of 4 years too. But I still feel really lucky.. most people never get over it. and her is me living life like it never happened :) I just wish I could take hold of people who suffer and help them in some way to see it the way I see it..then the penny would drop as it did with me. If the truth be known I'd heal the world if I could.. one life sacrifice for a better future for the human race .. It would be worth it!!!
I never really went into what the clairvoyant said to me did I?.. I#ll leave that for another day :P
Have a good one and love the ones closest to you, cos you never know when they will be gone :/ nite nite
Friday, August 20, 2004
Ok Bro...New Post On its way
Busy busy busy..lol
My latest fab people...Tropical fish :)
What can I say..... Move over Stargate...new addiction comming through :)
But this ones a bit more of a pinch on the old purse :/
Yes I bought a fab new aquarium... its 3 tanks joined together by 4 tubes... its way cool.. (pauses to smack self round head ..as I sound like my 11 year old son :/..)
My fish include ...**DRAWS BREATH**
1 Dwarf honey gourami..named jack...Vera died of a mysterious illness :(
3 Neon Tetra.. Un named as I can't tell the little buggers apart
7 Glow Light Tetras.. Un named again for the same reason above
3 Platies 1 male named Bob...lol.. 2 females ..named blondie and mindy
3 Guppies 1 male named Spud.. and his Mrs..Mrs spud :).. ah and his bit on the side Pepsi.. (Shock horror she just gave birth to 10 fry...the dirty little bugger! Hope Mrs spud don't find out!!)
3 Cory Dora Catfish...named Spot..Strip...and Sid
3 Apple Snails (as pictured above) named.. Zippy George and Bungle ( That ones for you Bro!!)
YaY.. and today I'm a mum...or is that Fish granny :(.. I have 10 baby guppies..aaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwww
I'm loving it.. and I've only killed 6 fish so far!! ...Lol... RIP little guys...ignorance was the reason.. I know better now..:P
Tatoo pic...hhhhhmmmmmmm its not a really good one but it gives you the idea...just ignore the fat belly..lol
Well thats enough for now.. do so more catching up tomorrow..
Nite x x x
Busy busy busy..lol
My latest fab people...Tropical fish :)
What can I say..... Move over Stargate...new addiction comming through :)
But this ones a bit more of a pinch on the old purse :/
Yes I bought a fab new aquarium... its 3 tanks joined together by 4 tubes... its way cool.. (pauses to smack self round head ..as I sound like my 11 year old son :/..)
My fish include ...**DRAWS BREATH**
1 Dwarf honey gourami..named jack...Vera died of a mysterious illness :(
3 Neon Tetra.. Un named as I can't tell the little buggers apart
7 Glow Light Tetras.. Un named again for the same reason above
3 Platies 1 male named Bob...lol.. 2 females ..named blondie and mindy
3 Guppies 1 male named Spud.. and his Mrs..Mrs spud :).. ah and his bit on the side Pepsi.. (Shock horror she just gave birth to 10 fry...the dirty little bugger! Hope Mrs spud don't find out!!)
3 Cory Dora Catfish...named Spot..Strip...and Sid
3 Apple Snails (as pictured above) named.. Zippy George and Bungle ( That ones for you Bro!!)
YaY.. and today I'm a mum...or is that Fish granny :(.. I have 10 baby guppies..aaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwww
I'm loving it.. and I've only killed 6 fish so far!! ...Lol... RIP little guys...ignorance was the reason.. I know better now..:P
Tatoo pic...hhhhhmmmmmmm its not a really good one but it gives you the idea...just ignore the fat belly..lol
Well thats enough for now.. do so more catching up tomorrow..
Nite x x x
Thursday, July 22, 2004
Someone Pinch Me.. Another month just went by :( Gulp
God I love blogger.. I go away for a month and bugger me... lots more new fab features :) making the bloging thing easier to do... YAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY to that folks ..lol god I'm loving this, me thinks I need to get out more.. Well funny you should say that but.............
Been out lots!! yes lots!! Had a great weekend at my parents (On my own with no family in tow..lol) and I can't tell you how freaky that was to be sleeping in a bedroom I was last in when I was 17 :P And to be without any responsibilities too... wow it was like being 17 again.. out on the town with mates etc!.lol well maybe a little over zelast with the last comment, but it was great to see a few people again. Yes ... we had a few minor panic attacks thrown in for good measure but nothing I couldn't handle :) I feel really Proud of myself :P
Had my Tattoo done... Major panic attack that evening.. almost jumped out of the car twice and legged it down the road..lol but I hung on in there.. and what can I say... what a total wimp, It didn't hurt a bit..lol I felt such a fool. But it looks really cute (small ladybird on the inside of my hip. aaaaawwwwwww) all healed now and just sits above the top of my jeans with his googlie eyes..lol FAB
Other news... erm..... My pig eating dog decided to start doing escapeology. Put him in the garden... ermmm.. go out 5 mins later.. No dog!!... half an hour round the town looking for the little reprobate.. still no dog!!.. then 10 mins later.. phone call from local school .. "Do you have a dog called Pippin?.... Yes.... Well could you please come and collect him from the football field?.... why? .... because he's playing 5 aside with year 8".. ROFL.... He must have enjoyed it so much he's escaped another 3 times since and can all ways be found on the football field.. lol So we took drastic action... Major improvements to the fence.. oh yes. and the small matter of removal of 2 testicals... hehe.. He's sat at the side of me now having come back from the vets today with a new stagger in his walk and an empty sack!.. lol Don't think he'll be going anywhere for a while ..lol
Nite chucks x x
God I love blogger.. I go away for a month and bugger me... lots more new fab features :) making the bloging thing easier to do... YAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY to that folks ..lol god I'm loving this, me thinks I need to get out more.. Well funny you should say that but.............
Been out lots!! yes lots!! Had a great weekend at my parents (On my own with no family in tow..lol) and I can't tell you how freaky that was to be sleeping in a bedroom I was last in when I was 17 :P And to be without any responsibilities too... wow it was like being 17 again.. out on the town with mates etc!.lol well maybe a little over zelast with the last comment, but it was great to see a few people again. Yes ... we had a few minor panic attacks thrown in for good measure but nothing I couldn't handle :) I feel really Proud of myself :P
Had my Tattoo done... Major panic attack that evening.. almost jumped out of the car twice and legged it down the road..lol but I hung on in there.. and what can I say... what a total wimp, It didn't hurt a bit..lol I felt such a fool. But it looks really cute (small ladybird on the inside of my hip. aaaaawwwwwww) all healed now and just sits above the top of my jeans with his googlie eyes..lol FAB
Other news... erm..... My pig eating dog decided to start doing escapeology. Put him in the garden... ermmm.. go out 5 mins later.. No dog!!... half an hour round the town looking for the little reprobate.. still no dog!!.. then 10 mins later.. phone call from local school .. "Do you have a dog called Pippin?.... Yes.... Well could you please come and collect him from the football field?.... why? .... because he's playing 5 aside with year 8".. ROFL.... He must have enjoyed it so much he's escaped another 3 times since and can all ways be found on the football field.. lol So we took drastic action... Major improvements to the fence.. oh yes. and the small matter of removal of 2 testicals... hehe.. He's sat at the side of me now having come back from the vets today with a new stagger in his walk and an empty sack!.. lol Don't think he'll be going anywhere for a while ..lol
Nite chucks x x
Thursday, June 17, 2004
Its official, I'm Having A Mid Life Crisis :P
Yes folks.. Sat her with a sore stomach :P.. Why may you ask?....... Well.......... In a sheer moment of madness I went and had my belly button pierced last week.. LMAO
My daughter had wanted hers doing for ages... So I thought.. What the heck lets go for it. Well she went first... There idea not mine and almost passed out..lol I walked into the room after the event for mine doing and she was sat in a chair looking a strange green colour. Ok you may think.. I've had too kids for god sake.. How painful can this be?..lol *note at this point I had already picked out a small tattoo to be done straight after the belly!!* So I lies on the bed .. Heart almost beating out of my chest, but otherwise not panicky at all, great I though No Problem!!.. Clamp went on :/.. Ok Brace Yourself!! I'm glad I didn't look at the Needle thing they use as I would have passed out there and then. ROFL . Yes Folks It hurt like hell. But I was brave just let out a small *ouch!!!* I thought to myself that's not too bad. Put my head up and looked down to find it was not finished yet..lol There was this strange looking appliance half way through my stomach and this had to be pulled back through with the bar on it...lol and my god that hurt!! But yet again I was brave.. *like Hell I was* I sat up and felt ok had a little chat about aftercare etc. just to get my breath before round 2..lol then suddely after about 5 mins I went green!! and had a massive panic attack!! Not that anyone in the room realized, they just thought I felt a little unwell and faint :) So I chickened out of the tattoo ... ***WHIMP*** and am going back next week when this belly has had time to heal. Though I must say after just 6 days its Ok not painful, unless you catch it that is :/ and its healing well thank goodness.
Only problem is.. Due to that fact I have had 2 kids my belly in that area is not as firm as it should be, so the large clear diamond stone in the lower half of the bar seems to be swallowed ..lol almost to the point it looks like a cavers pit helmet light shining from the opening of a huge cavern!!..lol Never mind I'll just have to go for the *REVERSE DANGLE*.. Yes I know that sounds painful but I assure you its not, its just another type of naval bar :0
Other News.......
Errrrrmmmmmmm well I'm suffering serious withdrawal at the mo as my fav show STARGATE SG1 has finished :(... blub blub... What is a girl to do?......... ermmmmmmmm buy the first 5 series on DVD..lol sounds bloody good to me!! Just think.. I can watch him over and over again... can pause him and speed him up when he's getting on my tits! Sounds like the perfect hubby to me :P I have just purchased some new software/hardware that allows me to watch telly on my PC and also edit it and any other type of media such as Video and DVD even my old camcorder films.. YAY. So now I can not only play him back and forth, but I can cut him into pieces *saving the best bits* and make even more Wallpaper/Screensavers. aaaaaahhhhhhhh Blissssssssssss.
Yes folks.. Sat her with a sore stomach :P.. Why may you ask?....... Well.......... In a sheer moment of madness I went and had my belly button pierced last week.. LMAO
My daughter had wanted hers doing for ages... So I thought.. What the heck lets go for it. Well she went first... There idea not mine and almost passed out..lol I walked into the room after the event for mine doing and she was sat in a chair looking a strange green colour. Ok you may think.. I've had too kids for god sake.. How painful can this be?..lol *note at this point I had already picked out a small tattoo to be done straight after the belly!!* So I lies on the bed .. Heart almost beating out of my chest, but otherwise not panicky at all, great I though No Problem!!.. Clamp went on :/.. Ok Brace Yourself!! I'm glad I didn't look at the Needle thing they use as I would have passed out there and then. ROFL . Yes Folks It hurt like hell. But I was brave just let out a small *ouch!!!* I thought to myself that's not too bad. Put my head up and looked down to find it was not finished yet..lol There was this strange looking appliance half way through my stomach and this had to be pulled back through with the bar on it...lol and my god that hurt!! But yet again I was brave.. *like Hell I was* I sat up and felt ok had a little chat about aftercare etc. just to get my breath before round 2..lol then suddely after about 5 mins I went green!! and had a massive panic attack!! Not that anyone in the room realized, they just thought I felt a little unwell and faint :) So I chickened out of the tattoo ... ***WHIMP*** and am going back next week when this belly has had time to heal. Though I must say after just 6 days its Ok not painful, unless you catch it that is :/ and its healing well thank goodness.
Only problem is.. Due to that fact I have had 2 kids my belly in that area is not as firm as it should be, so the large clear diamond stone in the lower half of the bar seems to be swallowed ..lol almost to the point it looks like a cavers pit helmet light shining from the opening of a huge cavern!!..lol Never mind I'll just have to go for the *REVERSE DANGLE*.. Yes I know that sounds painful but I assure you its not, its just another type of naval bar :0
Other News.......
Errrrrmmmmmmm well I'm suffering serious withdrawal at the mo as my fav show STARGATE SG1 has finished :(... blub blub... What is a girl to do?......... ermmmmmmmm buy the first 5 series on DVD..lol sounds bloody good to me!! Just think.. I can watch him over and over again... can pause him and speed him up when he's getting on my tits! Sounds like the perfect hubby to me :P I have just purchased some new software/hardware that allows me to watch telly on my PC and also edit it and any other type of media such as Video and DVD even my old camcorder films.. YAY. So now I can not only play him back and forth, but I can cut him into pieces *saving the best bits* and make even more Wallpaper/Screensavers. aaaaaahhhhhhhh Blissssssssssss.
Saturday, June 05, 2004
Me again :)
Just wanted to put a link in to a new site for the Anxiety ridden amongst us. Panic Survivor This is a very slick site :) he gets 10/10 for both the look and content of the site. It has forums and lots of up to date interesting info for anyone suffering from any type of anxiety based disorder. and what's more they are all very supportive and friendly. Why not drop in and take a look I am a member there myself and by the looks of it its going to just grow and grow. Well done to the maker!! *I will put a link in the margin when next I do some template editing* :)
Just wanted to put a link in to a new site for the Anxiety ridden amongst us. Panic Survivor This is a very slick site :) he gets 10/10 for both the look and content of the site. It has forums and lots of up to date interesting info for anyone suffering from any type of anxiety based disorder. and what's more they are all very supportive and friendly. Why not drop in and take a look I am a member there myself and by the looks of it its going to just grow and grow. Well done to the maker!! *I will put a link in the margin when next I do some template editing* :)
Friday, June 04, 2004
Is It June Already?:(
Forgive me father...... Its been almost 2 months since my last confession :(.......... What can I say....... Gulp :(... Time goes no where. Been so busy with the garden, the house, the animals, the kids , the odd nervous breakdown I just forgot to post. Well that's a bit of a lie.. Really I have turned into a secret e.bay whore with a serious shopping addiction :P.. Having filled my wardrobe, bought furniture, CD's, Books, oh yes .. and a Juicer..lol a strange plant stand thing...PC games... should I go on .. I think not. I have a problem (stands up and tells the room like at all the good AA Meetings) not that I have ever had a drink problem you understand. I tend to spill more than I ingest!..lol Yes folks that's been me... shopping selling and more shopping. and all the other family stuff too.
Nice to see a new look to blogger when I logged back in, very swish indeed.. me likes :) I will have to ad a few more links and other stuff to the page as I have been contacted by a few people who for some mad reason think putting a link on my page would improve their own stats..lol sad deluded fools.
I'm currently experiencing a time of anxiety as stress. Don't ask me why cos I aint got the foggiest as to the cause. Maybe its something to do with parting with large amounts of cash?..lol I never was too good at that. :( or maybe is just a hormone thing... Its been a bit of a shock to the system after feeling so well for so long. Getting my head around how shit it feels has not been easy. It's amazing how quickly you forget and take for granted wellness. But I'm sure I will come to grips with it once again and be back to my annoying self soon :)
I have made the effort to keep up with other peoples blogs, though I haven't felt much like making comments, sorry guys :( I also have a *to do* box full of mail to answer :( sorry again.. I just haven't felt much like it but now I got on top of all my jobs at home I will make a point of getting it done.
God this post sounds really crap..lol Boring.. Blah Blah Blah..
I'll try better next time honest! :P
Forgive me father...... Its been almost 2 months since my last confession :(.......... What can I say....... Gulp :(... Time goes no where. Been so busy with the garden, the house, the animals, the kids , the odd nervous breakdown I just forgot to post. Well that's a bit of a lie.. Really I have turned into a secret e.bay whore with a serious shopping addiction :P.. Having filled my wardrobe, bought furniture, CD's, Books, oh yes .. and a Juicer..lol a strange plant stand thing...PC games... should I go on .. I think not. I have a problem (stands up and tells the room like at all the good AA Meetings) not that I have ever had a drink problem you understand. I tend to spill more than I ingest!..lol Yes folks that's been me... shopping selling and more shopping. and all the other family stuff too.
Nice to see a new look to blogger when I logged back in, very swish indeed.. me likes :) I will have to ad a few more links and other stuff to the page as I have been contacted by a few people who for some mad reason think putting a link on my page would improve their own stats..lol sad deluded fools.
I'm currently experiencing a time of anxiety as stress. Don't ask me why cos I aint got the foggiest as to the cause. Maybe its something to do with parting with large amounts of cash?..lol I never was too good at that. :( or maybe is just a hormone thing... Its been a bit of a shock to the system after feeling so well for so long. Getting my head around how shit it feels has not been easy. It's amazing how quickly you forget and take for granted wellness. But I'm sure I will come to grips with it once again and be back to my annoying self soon :)
I have made the effort to keep up with other peoples blogs, though I haven't felt much like making comments, sorry guys :( I also have a *to do* box full of mail to answer :( sorry again.. I just haven't felt much like it but now I got on top of all my jobs at home I will make a point of getting it done.
God this post sounds really crap..lol Boring.. Blah Blah Blah..
I'll try better next time honest! :P
Thursday, April 08, 2004
Middle Aged Spread :(
The joys of getting older and reaching the ripe old age of 35 :P.. What can I say other than bits double in size, other bits loose the will to live and head south, suddenly there is more of me than there ever has been before :(
IF YOUR OF A DELICATE DISPOSITION PLEASE STOP READING NOW!!
Boobs......... What they all about... Most of my life I have been a 32B/C cup which is quite enough when you're 5' 2" tall and 8 1/2 stone. But for some reason when I hit 30 things started to grow again , its the second coming of puberty :(.. I have spent the last year or so struggling to find bras that fit. Each time I get a bigger size and think to myself *God I can't be this big!!* and I get the bra home only to find its too small :( Well it seems I have finally found a size to fit *holds breath* 32DDD ROFL But sadly for me the Bra industry make very little for such people as I, usually you need a larger back size to go with the boobs but mine is still small at a size 32/8 but my boobs are more 38/16..lol its all a bit scary. Will this inflation continue?.. Will I ever seem certain bits of my body again without the use of a mirror?..
The joys of getting older and reaching the ripe old age of 35 :P.. What can I say other than bits double in size, other bits loose the will to live and head south, suddenly there is more of me than there ever has been before :(
IF YOUR OF A DELICATE DISPOSITION PLEASE STOP READING NOW!!
Boobs......... What they all about... Most of my life I have been a 32B/C cup which is quite enough when you're 5' 2" tall and 8 1/2 stone. But for some reason when I hit 30 things started to grow again , its the second coming of puberty :(.. I have spent the last year or so struggling to find bras that fit. Each time I get a bigger size and think to myself *God I can't be this big!!* and I get the bra home only to find its too small :( Well it seems I have finally found a size to fit *holds breath* 32DDD ROFL But sadly for me the Bra industry make very little for such people as I, usually you need a larger back size to go with the boobs but mine is still small at a size 32/8 but my boobs are more 38/16..lol its all a bit scary. Will this inflation continue?.. Will I ever seem certain bits of my body again without the use of a mirror?..
Friday, April 02, 2004
Disaster!!...The Dog Ate My Pigs :(
Oh dear........ Sounds like a title from a really bad B Movie..:(.. But sadly its the truth!!.. I'm wearing black and all the curtains are closed :O.. The lovely Pippin decided to murder In cold blood 5 of my pigs :(. Bummer!!..
There I was minding my own business doing a bit in the garden.. Forget to check that the conservatory door was properly shut.... He slipped past me while I was in the greenhouse and killed 5 of them, leaving only 3 :( I'm amazed that he could kill 5 in a matter of a minute, as I had just come out of the garage. I walked back in to find him stood in the middle of the pen, with a large smile on his face, and a "Look how clever I am mum" in his eye..:( When I looked in the pen all around him were bodies :(.. Broken little pig bodies... *Balls head off** On further inspection of these little bodies, not a mark was found :/.. He must have broken all their necks as there was no sign of any injury on any of them. So at least they didn't suffer. I don't think I would have coped if they had been chewed up, blood and guts and all that.:(
So we had a mass funeral, under the coffin shaped shed that Rod was building in the corner of the garden ironically to house the pigs and keep them away from the dog!.. GGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRR
Oh well SHIT happens I guess :(.. Other than that I turned 35 on Monday :( and I have the flu :( again :(.
Oh dear........ Sounds like a title from a really bad B Movie..:(.. But sadly its the truth!!.. I'm wearing black and all the curtains are closed :O.. The lovely Pippin decided to murder In cold blood 5 of my pigs :(. Bummer!!..
There I was minding my own business doing a bit in the garden.. Forget to check that the conservatory door was properly shut.... He slipped past me while I was in the greenhouse and killed 5 of them, leaving only 3 :( I'm amazed that he could kill 5 in a matter of a minute, as I had just come out of the garage. I walked back in to find him stood in the middle of the pen, with a large smile on his face, and a "Look how clever I am mum" in his eye..:( When I looked in the pen all around him were bodies :(.. Broken little pig bodies... *Balls head off** On further inspection of these little bodies, not a mark was found :/.. He must have broken all their necks as there was no sign of any injury on any of them. So at least they didn't suffer. I don't think I would have coped if they had been chewed up, blood and guts and all that.:(
So we had a mass funeral, under the coffin shaped shed that Rod was building in the corner of the garden ironically to house the pigs and keep them away from the dog!.. GGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRR
Oh well SHIT happens I guess :(.. Other than that I turned 35 on Monday :( and I have the flu :( again :(.
Friday, March 26, 2004
I'm Back !!!! Honest!!!
Meet the newest member of the family.. Pippin.. a refugee from the local dogs home, so he fits right in here ;). We had been looking for a while, but finding something of the right size an nature to take us lot on was a tough call :)... but we got there in the end!.. He's gorgeous...... house trained...... doesn't molt..... likes his walks.......Hates his baths :(...... and is generally a real sweetie, we all love him.. so much so he sleeps in the bedroom with us on a night, sad I know but with them eyes giving you the hard luck treatment... You just can't resist..lol He was handed into kennels on Friday 13th..lol... poor love.... and luck what happened next... Out of the frying pan into the madhouse!! But he's settled in great and its like he's always been here to tell you the truth.
Other News.......... ermmmmmmmm too much to say really..Other than Daughter trying to kill herself with too much Booze and ending up casualty... Happily recovered now... so much so she has just got her self a part time job!!...HHHHUUUURRRRAAAYYYY... No more begging for cash...***Lives in hope***
Husband still on the golf course..... But now he's stepped things up a little.... He's the captain of his team..ROFL....... Oh... and he's subscribed to SKY sports to watch the Bloody golf on telly.......AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH... I WANT A DIVORCE!!!!
Went to a Clairvoyant the other day with a friend.........***I can here you all laughing from here***.. I'll tell you more about that another night ;)
And my little project has taken off....... Almost finished the website .. :).. Will post a link when its done then I will be looking for some serious help to get it upto scratch.
Well that's enough for now .. Other Than........... Who You Calling An Old Trout?....... Cheeky young beggar...Wait till I see you... You're in for it!!
nite nite x x
Meet the newest member of the family.. Pippin.. a refugee from the local dogs home, so he fits right in here ;). We had been looking for a while, but finding something of the right size an nature to take us lot on was a tough call :)... but we got there in the end!.. He's gorgeous...... house trained...... doesn't molt..... likes his walks.......Hates his baths :(...... and is generally a real sweetie, we all love him.. so much so he sleeps in the bedroom with us on a night, sad I know but with them eyes giving you the hard luck treatment... You just can't resist..lol He was handed into kennels on Friday 13th..lol... poor love.... and luck what happened next... Out of the frying pan into the madhouse!! But he's settled in great and its like he's always been here to tell you the truth.
Other News.......... ermmmmmmmm too much to say really..Other than Daughter trying to kill herself with too much Booze and ending up casualty... Happily recovered now... so much so she has just got her self a part time job!!...HHHHUUUURRRRAAAYYYY... No more begging for cash...***Lives in hope***
Husband still on the golf course..... But now he's stepped things up a little.... He's the captain of his team..ROFL....... Oh... and he's subscribed to SKY sports to watch the Bloody golf on telly.......AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH... I WANT A DIVORCE!!!!
Went to a Clairvoyant the other day with a friend.........***I can here you all laughing from here***.. I'll tell you more about that another night ;)
And my little project has taken off....... Almost finished the website .. :).. Will post a link when its done then I will be looking for some serious help to get it upto scratch.
Well that's enough for now .. Other Than........... Who You Calling An Old Trout?....... Cheeky young beggar...Wait till I see you... You're in for it!!
nite nite x x
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